Hello beautiful world and welcome back to my blog. How are you today? Take a moment to sit down and tap into how you’re really feeling, find appreciation and gratitude for anything and everything and just breathe. That’s what I’ve been trying to get better at recently, because I feel like I haven’t been tapping into how I’m truly feeling enough, and that’s because I’m scared.
When we feel negative emotions we want to ignore them, but it’s okay to feel sad or a little lost sometimes, if anything it’s totally normal and you should embrace it! This is something I’m still working on. Yes, I apologise because most of my posts must seem pretty samey recently, but I’m still powering through this awkward phase of my life.
I know deep down that my soul is trying to find a deeper meaning for me, and it’s all about maintaining faith that something amazing is about to come round the corner and sweep me off my feet, then I’ll look back and think- wow I’ve come so far, and I’m so glad that happened in order for me to get here.
Recently if I go running in the mornings (and by a run I mean 40% running 60% walking) I go on a route which takes me past my local church. I’m fortunate enough to live in a cute country village, where it’s calm and peaceful so running anywhere is pretty chilled. Yet I’d run past this church so many times and completely ignored it, because it was just part of the scenery.
Last week, I stepped inside. I don’t know who opens up this church so early but I usually go in about 8:30am or so, and the place is pretty dark with a little morning light and its dead silent… For some this may seem a little creepy but for me it was oddly calming.
I sat myself down in a pue and clasped my hands together. I was baptised as a Christian so I have been to church before it’s just something I was forced to do as a kid (kind of), this was me willingly getting down on my knees and praying… and it was awesome.
At this point in my job searching process I had had no responses, and I was feeling a little lost. So I asked for some guidance, I asked, I begged, for a sign for something to change, for a hand to hold, for strength in order to keep my faith. I know for some of you this may seem a little stupid, but I honestly just poured my heart out, emptied myself of any worries and then got up and left feeling 10 stone lighter than I did going in.
That same day I had a phone call about two different job interviews. That’s when I realised that the Law of Attraction works. If you put it out into the world, you ask for it, get down on your knees for it, it’ll manifest.
It’s about holding strong and keeping your head high, never fall down or settle for less than you deserve. I know that something exciting is on it’s way to me, yes I don’t know what exactly it is, but I know it’s there.
Sometimes uncertainty is okay, and it’s something I’ve been working on. Focus on yourself, don’t be comparitive because that won’t get you anywhere. If you truly want something and believe it’s yours, you’ve got it, just keep moving towards it in any way you can.
In the darkness there is always light- or something like that from the bible.
All my love,