Hi all, I’m literally typing this on my phone right now because I had a sudden urge to write and that’s a good thing so I’m taking the urge while it’s there!
You know, over this entire year I have learnt more about myself than ever before, and one of the things I have learnt is that I almost have two Egos or two personalities. I call these my soul and my brain or my business mentality.
So my Soul is, of course, the part of me which pursues all the things I love and make me feel good. My soul loves the outdoors, classical music, listening to nature, playing piano and reading historical novels.
These are all things that satisfy the deepest parts of me which few people in my life see, because these are all things I love to do for myself and often by myself. They give me a sense of fulfilment, a sense of lightness in chest, I feel like there are infinite possibilities, a universe at my fingertips to explore.
Beautiful right? And we all have this side to us, you may just not have found what it is your soul most desires yet… and that’s cool. I don’t really know either which is what’s super frustrating when you’re a 19 year old who’s trying to get everything together! But it’s all part of the process and we have to grow to love ourselves.
This other part of me is the business mindset, the brain. I’m also a super competitive person and love the whole concept of business, being under pressure and the man-made world. I’m a sucker for materialism, I love designer and I love fashion, because they make me feel good. I want to be a boss lady, and trust me I will be.
The trouble is these two parts of me are so different I struggle to find a balance. See right now I’m on more of the business path, but sometimes I can’t help but feel disconnected from my spirituality.
It’s super important to stay true to ourselves through everything, and it’s why I ensure to always make time for myself in the day. Whether it’s waking up 2 hours earlier than I need to for work, it’s so worth it! Because it means I can find time to fulfil my soul, and then fulfil the business part of me in my job.
If this is you too, and you can’t seem to find a balance. Keep trying, go with your gut, and what’s meant to be will be. If we trust our souls, and fulfil all parts of ourselves then everything will work out.
Have a beautiful evening my loves, sorry for the randomness of this post!
All my love,