A little appreciation post

Hello everyone, I hope you’re having a beautiful; morning, afternoon, evening or night no matter where you are in the world!

I wanted to write a post today about something that some of you may be able to relate to, and that is insomnia and sleeplessness. It’s literally something that is constantly the pain of my life and it’s a nightmare to deal with sometimes.

It doesn’t just affect me, if my boyfriend is to sleep over at my place there’s a 99% I’ll be keeping him up with me as I’m rolling around like a marooned whale trying to calm my restlessness and get comfortable. When you’re both working full time it’s not reallyyyy ideal to be going in on 3 hours sleep, but that was the case for us both on Monday morning this week. I couldn’t appreciate you more Luke for putting up with me, I know you’re reading this.

Why does insomnia happen? Ding ding, the bell for anxiety rings once again. I know this may not be the only cause, but for me I’m pretty sure this is at the core of it all. Whether it’s anxiety from overthinking the following day, or anxiety that I’ll get woken in the night (because I’m such a light sleeper) or whether it’s simply because I’m counting down the hours until I need to be awake again.

Although this is a pain, and it’s something I’m slowly trying to cope with, through meditation and reading before bed to calm my mind, I flip this negative into a positive because it makes me have a deeper appreciation for my body. Even on 3 hours of sleep yesterday I was able to be seriouslyyyy productive at my new job, and I didn’t even need a coffee to help me!

I was able to function, my legs held me up, my brain managed to stay focused, my eyes willingly stayed open and I still found the motivation and energy to do a mini workout at home that evening.

Now if that isn’t strength I don’t know what is!

For you mothers or fathers out there I’m sure you’re more adapted to this sleepless cycle, and I’m sure there are times when you couldn’t pray more for a decent nights sleep. But if anything should keep you positive and motivated, it’s that your body won’t give up on you, it will keep going, it will keep you moving and it will hold through.

Staying strong mentally and telling yourself you are capable of doing something changes your physical world too.

If anyone as any tips for insomnia or sleeplessness please do let me know, either shoot me an email or write a comment for me, I’d love to hear your suggestions!

All my love,

HG

Making Judgements

So after a bit of a tiring week (since I started a new job), which I am super proud of myself for getting… I didn’t really know what to write about. I’ve been absorbing so much new information that my brain has just been overloaded, but in a good way, I love learning new things and being challenged so for me this is really cool. After going on a run this evening something suddenly clicked for me, I wasn’t even particularly thinking about it but it makes sense to write about.

See when I was job searching I struggled because I know I’m an intelligent individual with tons of potential, yet a lack of degree and experience in the necessary fields… Therefore I struggled to accept that I might have to start from the bottom and work my way up career wise. Butttttttttt, there’s nothing at all wrong with that.

My point is, is that I was judging myself for not starting my dream job immediately. So that’s what this post is about, I think the trouble is, some of us (and I know it can’t just be me) are so hard on ourselves and hard on other people because we are too judgmental about a situation that we are currently in that we end up producing this negative energy (which by the way doesn’t look good on anyone who wears it).

By observing everything with optimism, and positivity we automatically start being easier on ourselves too. What I’m trying to say is to stop judging other people and you will in turn stop judging yourself. If you laugh at an overweight person with your friends as you walk past them in the street chances are you look at yourself in the mirror and claim how ‘fat’ you are. Your insecurities reflect in how you perceive other people, and it just creates such negativity.

The moment I stopped judging myself for starting up in a career that I knew I didn’t want to do for life, just; something to get me going, a foot in the door of an amazing company with endless opportunities the Universe granted me with that something.

Am I making any sense? I hope so, I tend to type at the speed of my mind, and that runs pretty fast sometimes!

“Stop judging other people and you will stop judging yourself.”

Making your mentality so much more healthy, and making you more of an attractive person to other people! Try it for a day, challenge yourself to be more open minded, not closed off with judgements on why people are the way they are or look the way the look. That’s not for you to judge. Be positive and sympathetic, and great things will follow.

All my love,

HG

The Letter we should all write to ourselves…

Dear me,

I am beautiful, bold, brave, courageous and kind. I am doing amazing, working towards all my goals.

I am grateful for everything the Universe has gifted me so far, and I have even more gratitude for everything that is to come.

I am so strong. I have continued walking even in the hardest, darkest days; through rejection, anger and emotional states. I am still standing.

Everything I have been through has humbled me and made me into a stronger, better person.

There are no negatives in anything, just love and lessons to be learnt from.

I will constantly do the things I love, that keep me focused and inspire me to go after my biggest aspirations.

I am so proud of who I am. I love myself for staying true to who I am through it all.

Thank you Universe,

Hannah

… thought I’d share this. It’s a letter I wrote to myself one morning, sometimes I find writing down positive affirmations can really help if you’re not in the best mood. By doing this daily you’ll eventually start to believe them too, try it for yourself perhaps. Also I want to apologise for being MIA again. I have some important shifts happening in my life right now, things are beginning to re-align, and I’m excited.

All my love,

HG

Keeping it real

Hello beautiful world. So it’s the evening here in England currently, but I wanted to write just because I know I love writing, is that okay with you guys? I hope so…

Today I had a bad day, for me a very bad day. I felt as bad as I did back at the beginning of this year, when my anxiety and low mood was at an all time high. I just wanted to write to prove to you guys that everyone has bad days, today was just one of those, a bad day.

We don’t have to allow our emotions to spill into the next day. Tomorrow hasn’t happened yet, it’s new, fresh, ready for the taking. Seize it, get as much as you can from it, because it’s time you can’t get back!

That being said, today I felt emotionally exhausted. My eyes hurt from crying and I was constantly in need of reassuring hugs from my mum, and that’s okay. So I haven’t forced myself to do too much, when I went to the gym I didn’t hate myself for not having the energy to do an intense ab workout because I didn’t feel in the right mindset. And that’s okay.

We all have bad days, but that’s all they are. Tomorrow I vow to do better, achieve more and begin my new adventure, open new doors and create more opportunities for myself because there is always a way.

I think I should create a new series don’t you think? About never giving up? Because you wait, you’ll be reading my blog a year from now and I’ll be in a completely different phase of my life, one that’s brighter and filled with more hope.

It’s time for me to fall in love with myself again, regain my focus and figure out a direction. Because we, ourselves, should always be our NUMBER ONE PRIORITY. Never forget that.

All my love,

HG

Manifestation

Hello beautiful world and welcome back to my blog. How are you today? Take a moment to sit down and tap into how you’re really feeling, find appreciation and gratitude for anything and everything and just breathe. That’s what I’ve been trying to get better at recently, because I feel like I haven’t been tapping into how I’m truly feeling enough, and that’s because I’m scared.

When we feel negative emotions we want to ignore them, but it’s okay to feel sad or a little lost sometimes, if anything it’s totally normal and you should embrace it! This is something I’m still working on. Yes, I apologise because most of my posts must seem pretty samey recently, but I’m still powering through this awkward phase of my life.

I know deep down that my soul is trying to find a deeper meaning for me, and it’s all about maintaining faith that something amazing is about to come round the corner and sweep me off my feet, then I’ll look back and think- wow I’ve come so far, and I’m so glad that happened in order for me to get here.

Recently if I go running in the mornings (and by a run I mean 40% running 60% walking) I go on a route which takes me past my local church. I’m fortunate enough to live in a cute country village, where it’s calm and peaceful so running anywhere is pretty chilled. Yet I’d run past this church so many times and completely ignored it, because it was just part of the scenery.

Last week, I stepped inside. I don’t know who opens up this church so early but I usually go in about 8:30am or so, and the place is pretty dark with a little morning light and its dead silent… For some this may seem a little creepy but for me it was oddly calming.

I sat myself down in a pue and clasped my hands together. I was baptised as a Christian so I have been to church before it’s just something I was forced to do as a kid (kind of), this was me willingly getting down on my knees and praying… and it was awesome.

At this point in my job searching process I had had no responses, and I was feeling a little lost. So I asked for some guidance, I asked, I begged, for a sign for something to change, for a hand to hold, for strength in order to keep my faith. I know for some of you this may seem a little stupid, but I honestly just poured my heart out, emptied myself of any worries and then got up and left feeling 10 stone lighter than I did going in.

That same day I had a phone call about two different job interviews. That’s when I realised that the Law of Attraction works. If you put it out into the world, you ask for it, get down on your knees for it, it’ll manifest.

It’s about holding strong and keeping your head high, never fall down or settle for less than you deserve. I know that something exciting is on it’s way to me, yes I don’t know what exactly it is, but I know it’s there.

Sometimes uncertainty is okay, and it’s something I’ve been working on. Focus on yourself, don’t be comparitive because that won’t get you anywhere. If you truly want something and believe it’s yours, you’ve got it, just keep moving towards it in any way you can.

In the darkness there is always light- or something like that from the bible.

All my love,

HG

Pat yourself on the back

Hello beautiful readers, and a happy monday to you all! Who else remembers being told to do this at their primary school? After any little activity or small achievement we would be told to congratulate ourselves, appreciate that we had done well and then move forward.

Why am I talking about this? Because I feel like it’s become habit for so many of us to ignore the small achievements we’ve made, and only focus on the large and most ‘life-changing.’ The trouble is with this is that we’re left with a sense of never being satisfied, always wanting more, bigger, better.

Sometimes it can even stop us pursuing those things which we really want, our biggest dreams and goals because we believe they are so unattainable, out of reach. When really, if we’d payed attention and noted all the baby steps we were already making towards them then we would realise that we’re on our way there.

To be honest this is how I’ve been feeling recently, a little defeated you know. One of the ways I find helps me when I’m feeling a little lost, or feeling as though everything I desire is so far from my grasp is I remember all the little things I have achieved. Things such as starting this very blog! This was a major thing for me this year, yet I so often over-look it because it’s become part of routine now. I can tell you that setting up a website is not easy people, it was a mission and a half to do this, yet still I forget to pat myself on the back for it.

Another achievement is over-coming the worst of my anxiety. You know I’ve vowed to myself I will never allow myself to sink that low again, all the counselling, all the meditation, all the mind-training was worth it. Yet I still forget to pat myself on the back for it. If I could take myself back to how I was feeling in January of this year I know I was begging to feel this normal on a daily basis like I am now, rather than so up tight and miserable.

Whenever things are getting a little hard, whether you’re going through a break-up, mourning a loved one or are stressed for exams, remember to pat yourself on the back for the little things. If you’re struggling with a break-up, pat yourself on the back for the first day you’re strong enough not to cry. If you’re mourning someone you love, pat yourself on the back for the day you actually get out of bed. If you’re stressed for exams, pat yourself on the back for the that time you nailed that one practice paper.

Because the little things matter, heck, they matter the most, because if we didn’t appreciate them we wouldn’t be able to reach the bigger goals. Don’t overlook them or become blind to them, embrace them, and keep progressing.

All my love,

HG

M.I.A

Hello beautiful readers. I want to start off with an apology, I was missing in action last week and I’ll do some explaining on that pretty soon. In complete honesty I wasn’t feeling all myself, and as I’ve said before if I’m not feeling motivated and inspired I don’t feel it’s right to write to you lot and put that negativity out to the world. I’m here to promote love and endless possibilities, not sadness and lost hope.

So, I believe my last post may have been about finding a new job, am I correct? If not it was one of my most recent ones, so if you haven’t read it yet this is me telling you to do so:) . Yes, last week I started this new job, and I went into it a little blinded I suppose, I knew I could make good money if I worked hard at it, and this money would help fund the business of my dreams and help me accumulate the skills I needed to be a leader. So why was I so miserable last week that I couldn’t write when I was starting something that could potentially take me to where I wanted to be?

Because we all know I go off energies and vibes, for me happiness is a soul priority. Some people may think I’m stupid for following these emotions but in my mind if I’m going to be working crazy hours and losing my social life for a job which I don’t partiuarly enjoy, I’d be stupid to stay.

Sometimes things don’t go to plan, and life loves throwing hurdles to test us with how badly we want something. I know that I’m going to be living the life I’ve always craved in a decade from now, I don’t care how long it takes, but I know I’m going to get there. It’s all about maintaining your trust in the Universe and yourself, believe its yours and you’ve got it.

So last week I spent the time to pick myself up and dust myself off, I had my time of wallowing in sadness and getting all emotional because things didn’t seem to be going the way I wanted them to. Today marks a new week, a new start, a new chapter. It’s time to start something new, recentre myself, and remain a badass.

Often when things don’t go how I want, and I seem to be in a bit of a troubled state I always remember Jen Sincero’s book How to Be a Badass, the chapter about the EGO. The EGO will throw obstacles into your life to challenge you and sway you from what you really want, forcing you out of your comfort zone and scaring you into submission. (No the ego is not some menacing monsterous presence, this is all phycological shit). I remember her story about some guy who really wanted to open his own business, so he quit his job which was the first step, then he managed to get two flat tires leaving work, his babysitter ran into his wifes car, the water main under his kithen sink exploded and to top it all off he got hit by a freaking bus. But he still never gave up.

If that doesn’t inspire you I don’t know what will. I need to stick to the plan and keep being myself, that’s all I can do, the Universe will reward me eventually, I just have to keep progressing, keep moving in the right direction. Fall in love with the process of becoming the best version of yourself, because the end result will be amazing.

All my love,

HG