M.I.A

Hello beautiful readers. I want to start off with an apology, I was missing in action last week and I’ll do some explaining on that pretty soon. In complete honesty I wasn’t feeling all myself, and as I’ve said before if I’m not feeling motivated and inspired I don’t feel it’s right to write to you lot and put that negativity out to the world. I’m here to promote love and endless possibilities, not sadness and lost hope.

So, I believe my last post may have been about finding a new job, am I correct? If not it was one of my most recent ones, so if you haven’t read it yet this is me telling you to do so:) . Yes, last week I started this new job, and I went into it a little blinded I suppose, I knew I could make good money if I worked hard at it, and this money would help fund the business of my dreams and help me accumulate the skills I needed to be a leader. So why was I so miserable last week that I couldn’t write when I was starting something that could potentially take me to where I wanted to be?

Because we all know I go off energies and vibes, for me happiness is a soul priority. Some people may think I’m stupid for following these emotions but in my mind if I’m going to be working crazy hours and losing my social life for a job which I don’t partiuarly enjoy, I’d be stupid to stay.

Sometimes things don’t go to plan, and life loves throwing hurdles to test us with how badly we want something. I know that I’m going to be living the life I’ve always craved in a decade from now, I don’t care how long it takes, but I know I’m going to get there. It’s all about maintaining your trust in the Universe and yourself, believe its yours and you’ve got it.

So last week I spent the time to pick myself up and dust myself off, I had my time of wallowing in sadness and getting all emotional because things didn’t seem to be going the way I wanted them to. Today marks a new week, a new start, a new chapter. It’s time to start something new, recentre myself, and remain a badass.

Often when things don’t go how I want, and I seem to be in a bit of a troubled state I always remember Jen Sincero’s book How to Be a Badass, the chapter about the EGO. The EGO will throw obstacles into your life to challenge you and sway you from what you really want, forcing you out of your comfort zone and scaring you into submission. (No the ego is not some menacing monsterous presence, this is all phycological shit). I remember her story about some guy who really wanted to open his own business, so he quit his job which was the first step, then he managed to get two flat tires leaving work, his babysitter ran into his wifes car, the water main under his kithen sink exploded and to top it all off he got hit by a freaking bus. But he still never gave up.

If that doesn’t inspire you I don’t know what will. I need to stick to the plan and keep being myself, that’s all I can do, the Universe will reward me eventually, I just have to keep progressing, keep moving in the right direction. Fall in love with the process of becoming the best version of yourself, because the end result will be amazing.

All my love,

HG

Lets get uncomfortable

Hello everyone and welcome back to my blog @hannahzgrace I hope you have all had a beautiful day so far. Here in the UK today it is 38 degrees celcius (turning into a weather woman now), and for us British citizens we are not accustomed to this kind of weather. It’s unbearable. We’re used to the rain and grey skies, so this kind of heat killssss us. So here I am in my back garden sipping on some iced water in the shade and still sweating one out. Super British.

The discomfort from this heat today reminded me of a topic I’ve wanting to talk about for a while on my blog, and that is that in order to grow and progress we all need to face a level of discomfort.

This is something I have lived by since reading Jen Sincero’s book How to Be a Badass back in March of this year, and every time I feel myself getting a little too comfortable with something I remind myself that discomfort often leads to progression.

I know that may sound a little harsh and even writing it feels wrong in a sense, because why would we want to make ourselves uncomfortable right? Especially if we’re happy? But just hear me out okay…

So picture your idol in your head, someone really successful who inspires and motivates you to want to pursue your dreams. Whether that’s wanting a killer body like Kendall Jenner or wanting to have the authority and mind of Alan Sugar, it’s all the same.

In order for these people to be as successful as they are do you think the road was easy? For any Kardashian haters out there I’m sure you’re all silently thinking that Kendall Jenner didn’t have to try to become a super-model since her name essentially brought her fame, but I completely disagree with you.

If Kendall Jenner didn’t have the drive and mindset to succeed she wouldn’t have made it, and that’s facts. She had to get out of her comfort zone and face challenges just like the rest of us will in order to reach our long-term goals and achieve our greatest desires.

What I’m trying to say is, in order to progress and better yourself you need to make a habit of/ get used to the feeling of discomfort. Constantly push yourself, and eventually you’ll get to where you want to be.

Often I know if I’m making the right decision based on my gut feeling. Something that excites me, yet scares me and makes me feel uncomfortable is most likely what I’ll go after. Life’s all about learning and bettering yourself, it’s a journey that you make for you and only you. Make it as fulfilling as you can.

Because being uncomfortable is great… just not 38 degree weather.

All my love,

HG

Fear of the unsuccessful

You know I was asked recently what I was most scared of. Initially I couldn’t think of anything since I’m not the kind of girl who winces at spiders or faints at the sight of blood. For me I’ve always been fearful of being unsuccessful, and I think this is where the whole concept of pressuring myself comes into action.

You see, I take things too seriously sometimes because I’m always striving for more. I’m rarely satisfied because I love to push myself to the maximum, and if I’m working/studying something unfulfilling it really affects me, and I find myself getting frustrated because I’m not at my full potential.

Along with working on living with uncertainty I’m working on living in the present. It’s super important for me and my mental well-being to appreciate the journey, because success doesn’t often happen over-night. I suppose it depends what you determine as ‘success’ too. If success was waking up in the morning with a positive outlook every day I would be successful a lot of the time.

I think part of the problem with my generation is that there’s always a want/need for more. This is due to constant comparison. What we forget is that we should be working towards bettering our lives for ourselves! Not for anyone else, not to be able to compare further and judge each other’s achievements. We are all running our own race in our own time. Love the journey and embrace it, believe that you will make it and you will.

All my love,

HG

Make mistakes

Good morning beautiful world, I’m currently at Centre Parcs enjoying a Starbucks whilst everyone else goes swimming. If you’re a girl who fake tans you’ll know that chlorine literally makes you look like a lizard so it’s truly not worth swimming especially since I’ve just re-done my whole body. Anyway…

We all know I went to South Africa recently, nothing new to say about that which I haven’t already said, except that it really did act as a second awakening for me. Sometimes we have to experience things in order to discover if it’s your cup of tea, but not everyone likes tea, some people like coffee. Although I adored South Africa and really appreciated the whole experience it made me realise that I wasn’t overly fussed about studying it in the long-term. 

Arriving back home I had a bit of a breakdown because it felt like I had just taken another 10 steps backwards with how far I had come since February when I stopped my counselling as I felt I had a sense of direction again. Now I was back to square one, what do I want to do with myself? 

And who do I confide in when my mind is troubled? My mum. So we had a long chat about how I felt, because in myself I knew I was unhappy and I had the urge, that gut feeling, that studying animal conservation wasn’t right for me at this moment in time. 

My mum told me something I realised I needed to hear and that was that it’s okay to live with uncertainty and that not everything has to be planned and known for definite. I think because I’m such an organised person 90% of the time this has always been something I’ve struggled with, I’m a bit of a perfectionist I would say and this is because I like winning. I’m a very competitive person you see, which has its pro’s and cons of course. 

Living with uncertainty is kind of a crazy concept for me, but it’s something I’m trying to get better at. I think having anxiety doesn’t help with this, but I don’t think that’s the only reason, as I said I think it’s just my personality to be organised and planned. 

But we don’t always need a freaking plan! Now is the time to make mistakes, to change our minds over and over again until one day we know what we want to do when we’re asked! Who knows what I’m destined to do, I know I’ll be successful at whatever I do but I don’t know what it is yet and that’s okay! Too much pressure is put on the younger generation to know what we want so that we get forced into job roles that don’t suit us or we outgrow. 

It’s never too late to change your mind or change career path. Always trust your gut, follow your soul and find your happiness. One day you’ll know what you want to do, because you’ve made all the mistakes you can, and that’s part of life.

All my love,

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

South African Wildlife!

Hello everyone! Here are some of the photos I promised on my last post from my trip to South Africa. It was a truly amazing experience, pictures simply cannot capture it’s beauty. Enjoy and let me know what you think! I will be back soon with my fourth anxiety help guide post.

To be honest I got more videos than photos which will all be combined into a YouTube video which will be posted on my channel- Hannah Grace- soon! I saw lots more animals than just these few but I wanted to enjoy the present moment when I was there and not live behind the camera or through a screen, I hope you all understand.

All my love,

HG

A more serious blog post

Hello beautiful readers, I hope you’ve all had an amazing day or are currently having an amazing day. I am currently in a siesta in South Africa, so most people are napping before we head out this evening for a night drive which should be exciting. On regular monitoring during the day, the majority of the animals here are passed out sleeping or are just very inactive, this is because it’s cooler in the evenings therefore they are more active then, so tonight should be interesting! 

Being here in South Africa has been really fascinating, it wasn’t quite what I expected but then I didn’t really have any expectations anyway! To be honest I thought I’d cope better with travelling alone because I am a confident person but as I mentioned in my previous post I did struggle for a couple of days. Overall the entire experience has been incredible and I would recommend it to anyone, it’s so refreshing to be outside every day, the scenery here has been insane and of course the wildlife is incredible. It’s actually rather surreal to see animals such as giraffes, elephants and lions in the wild rather than behind a fence at a zoo in small enclosures. Being able to help the local communities too has been wonderful, and every day I learn something new about a species of animal here. The best part is everything is a surprise, you may go out planning on tracking rhinos and come across an entire herd of elephants in the process. I’ll be sharing even more photos at the end of next week once I’m home again, since I have too many to share! 

One of the places I visited this week is called Born Free, a place where rescued big cats can find solitude and finds forever home, after being either abused or mistreated by previous owners. One of the lions, King, was particularly friendly, although this was adorable it was pretty evident that he would never be able to get released into the wild because he was too confident around humans which could lead to him being poached. They have Born Free centres worldwide, places like this really deserve recognition, and although I got to visit as a volunteer these places are not zoo’s, and there was only a small number of us visiting the sanctuary on this morning. I really appreciate the work of places like this, to be able to visit here was a really lovely experience, and although it was sad hearing these cats back stories it was also reassuring to know they are in good hands now.

Another memorable experience this week was seeing a black rhino in the wild, for those who don’t know this species of rhino is particularly endangered, rhinos in general are regularly poached for their horns. For anyone who can it would really be amazing if you could sponsor a rhino or help contribute to this species survival, part of this means spreading awareness that rhino horns don’t have any medicinal value which is believed in many cultures but is false. If we get rid of the consumers there is no need for the product therefore rhino horns wouldn’t be in demand and they wouldn’t be getting poached. 

I know this post was a bit more informative than my others, and I still have lots to talk about with South Africa, but I just felt the need to help everyone understand that this trip wasn’t just for fun I’m educating myself in conservation and helping protect species that may not be around in the next 20 years! We should all spread awareness for animal conservation, because are we really happy with our children only being able to see an elephant or rhino through a picture book? I think not. Have a beautiful week.

All my love, 
HG 
(The Broken Pearl) 

P.S: I apologise for this post being delayed, I have just been very busy here and timing has been a struggle, I hope you understand

The one thing stopping you from doing what you love

Hello beautiful readers, I am currently feeling super motivated and fancied writing while I was in the zone. To be honest, I just want to help as many people as I can with my advice. As I’ve mentioned multiple times I love giving to others, and as Jen Sincero taught me in her book You are a Badass– in giving to others you will undoubtedly recieve an abundance of goods, because that’s the way the Universe works, what you put out you recieve… and I freaking love that!

So I remember when I started University, or even when studying my A Levels that I had a really strong feeling and passion about going to one of Africa’s many countries and getting involved with the wildlife out there. I’ve always been one of those people who sits on the edge of their seat while watching Planet Earth as David Attenborough narrates the life of a penguin, whale or zerba. I love the beauty and complexity of the Earth and nature itself, it’s always been something I’ve held such admiration for. I think growing up in the countryside of Kent in England has contributed to this. Forestry and endless rolling hills are scenes that have become normalised for me but some people dream of in their built up towns or sky-scraper cities.

As I said however this has become normalised to me, I know there’s so much more exotic wildlife out there, and I want to witness it. I’ve never been one to watch a lot of TV, in my opinion I’d rather be experiencing or doing what I’m watching rather than sitting on my bum and commenting on what other people are achieving. I’m not saying I don’t relax and chill out sometimes, but I am such a do’er so I wasn’t just planning on watching David Attenborough narrate about zebras I was going to do it myself.

When I ran into a large sum of money at the end of 2018, I didn’t pay back the student loan I owed immediatly, I didn’t use it to learn to drive which perhaps would have been the ‘sensible’ thing to do. Instead I used it to do something I was super passionate about and knew I would cherish in my heart forever… I BOOKED A TRIP TO SOUTH AFRICA TO WILDLIFE VOLUNTEER.

If you’re new here this is news for you, for those of you who have been here before, your ears are probably bleeding from hearing me talk about this again and I apologise. But I cannot contain my excitement enough!

What I’m trying to say is that sometimes it’s important to go for what feels good rather than what other people are trying to convince you to do, or what might be the ‘sensible’ thing to do. Be wild and crazy, pursue what many would think you were stupid for doing because at the end of the day as long as you’re happy and your soul is content what is there to worry about?

Most people back out of things they truly desire out of fear. Don’t be that person. Make your dreams a reality. Travel through your TV screen, start living the life you’ve always wanted. For me South Africa is the start of something beautiful, it’s the start of a new addiction, an adventure of a lifetime.

I hope you go after what’s calling you too.

All my love,

HG

(The Broken Pearl)