Fear of the unsuccessful

You know I was asked recently what I was most scared of. Initially I couldn’t think of anything since I’m not the kind of girl who winces at spiders or faints at the sight of blood. For me I’ve always been fearful of being unsuccessful, and I think this is where the whole concept of pressuring myself comes into action.

You see, I take things too seriously sometimes because I’m always striving for more. I’m rarely satisfied because I love to push myself to the maximum, and if I’m working/studying something unfulfilling it really affects me, and I find myself getting frustrated because I’m not at my full potential.

Along with working on living with uncertainty I’m working on living in the present. It’s super important for me and my mental well-being to appreciate the journey, because success doesn’t often happen over-night. I suppose it depends what you determine as ‘success’ too. If success was waking up in the morning with a positive outlook every day I would be successful a lot of the time.

I think part of the problem with my generation is that there’s always a want/need for more. This is due to constant comparison. What we forget is that we should be working towards bettering our lives for ourselves! Not for anyone else, not to be able to compare further and judge each other’s achievements. We are all running our own race in our own time. Love the journey and embrace it, believe that you will make it and you will.

All my love,

HG

Make mistakes

Good morning beautiful world, I’m currently at Centre Parcs enjoying a Starbucks whilst everyone else goes swimming. If you’re a girl who fake tans you’ll know that chlorine literally makes you look like a lizard so it’s truly not worth swimming especially since I’ve just re-done my whole body. Anyway…

We all know I went to South Africa recently, nothing new to say about that which I haven’t already said, except that it really did act as a second awakening for me. Sometimes we have to experience things in order to discover if it’s your cup of tea, but not everyone likes tea, some people like coffee. Although I adored South Africa and really appreciated the whole experience it made me realise that I wasn’t overly fussed about studying it in the long-term. 

Arriving back home I had a bit of a breakdown because it felt like I had just taken another 10 steps backwards with how far I had come since February when I stopped my counselling as I felt I had a sense of direction again. Now I was back to square one, what do I want to do with myself? 

And who do I confide in when my mind is troubled? My mum. So we had a long chat about how I felt, because in myself I knew I was unhappy and I had the urge, that gut feeling, that studying animal conservation wasn’t right for me at this moment in time. 

My mum told me something I realised I needed to hear and that was that it’s okay to live with uncertainty and that not everything has to be planned and known for definite. I think because I’m such an organised person 90% of the time this has always been something I’ve struggled with, I’m a bit of a perfectionist I would say and this is because I like winning. I’m a very competitive person you see, which has its pro’s and cons of course. 

Living with uncertainty is kind of a crazy concept for me, but it’s something I’m trying to get better at. I think having anxiety doesn’t help with this, but I don’t think that’s the only reason, as I said I think it’s just my personality to be organised and planned. 

But we don’t always need a freaking plan! Now is the time to make mistakes, to change our minds over and over again until one day we know what we want to do when we’re asked! Who knows what I’m destined to do, I know I’ll be successful at whatever I do but I don’t know what it is yet and that’s okay! Too much pressure is put on the younger generation to know what we want so that we get forced into job roles that don’t suit us or we outgrow. 

It’s never too late to change your mind or change career path. Always trust your gut, follow your soul and find your happiness. One day you’ll know what you want to do, because you’ve made all the mistakes you can, and that’s part of life.

All my love,

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

South African Wildlife!

Hello everyone! Here are some of the photos I promised on my last post from my trip to South Africa. It was a truly amazing experience, pictures simply cannot capture it’s beauty. Enjoy and let me know what you think! I will be back soon with my fourth anxiety help guide post.

To be honest I got more videos than photos which will all be combined into a YouTube video which will be posted on my channel- Hannah Grace- soon! I saw lots more animals than just these few but I wanted to enjoy the present moment when I was there and not live behind the camera or through a screen, I hope you all understand.

All my love,

HG

A more serious blog post

Hello beautiful readers, I hope you’ve all had an amazing day or are currently having an amazing day. I am currently in a siesta in South Africa, so most people are napping before we head out this evening for a night drive which should be exciting. On regular monitoring during the day, the majority of the animals here are passed out sleeping or are just very inactive, this is because it’s cooler in the evenings therefore they are more active then, so tonight should be interesting! 

Being here in South Africa has been really fascinating, it wasn’t quite what I expected but then I didn’t really have any expectations anyway! To be honest I thought I’d cope better with travelling alone because I am a confident person but as I mentioned in my previous post I did struggle for a couple of days. Overall the entire experience has been incredible and I would recommend it to anyone, it’s so refreshing to be outside every day, the scenery here has been insane and of course the wildlife is incredible. It’s actually rather surreal to see animals such as giraffes, elephants and lions in the wild rather than behind a fence at a zoo in small enclosures. Being able to help the local communities too has been wonderful, and every day I learn something new about a species of animal here. The best part is everything is a surprise, you may go out planning on tracking rhinos and come across an entire herd of elephants in the process. I’ll be sharing even more photos at the end of next week once I’m home again, since I have too many to share! 

One of the places I visited this week is called Born Free, a place where rescued big cats can find solitude and finds forever home, after being either abused or mistreated by previous owners. One of the lions, King, was particularly friendly, although this was adorable it was pretty evident that he would never be able to get released into the wild because he was too confident around humans which could lead to him being poached. They have Born Free centres worldwide, places like this really deserve recognition, and although I got to visit as a volunteer these places are not zoo’s, and there was only a small number of us visiting the sanctuary on this morning. I really appreciate the work of places like this, to be able to visit here was a really lovely experience, and although it was sad hearing these cats back stories it was also reassuring to know they are in good hands now.

Another memorable experience this week was seeing a black rhino in the wild, for those who don’t know this species of rhino is particularly endangered, rhinos in general are regularly poached for their horns. For anyone who can it would really be amazing if you could sponsor a rhino or help contribute to this species survival, part of this means spreading awareness that rhino horns don’t have any medicinal value which is believed in many cultures but is false. If we get rid of the consumers there is no need for the product therefore rhino horns wouldn’t be in demand and they wouldn’t be getting poached. 

I know this post was a bit more informative than my others, and I still have lots to talk about with South Africa, but I just felt the need to help everyone understand that this trip wasn’t just for fun I’m educating myself in conservation and helping protect species that may not be around in the next 20 years! We should all spread awareness for animal conservation, because are we really happy with our children only being able to see an elephant or rhino through a picture book? I think not. Have a beautiful week.

All my love, 
HG 
(The Broken Pearl) 

P.S: I apologise for this post being delayed, I have just been very busy here and timing has been a struggle, I hope you understand

The one thing stopping you from doing what you love

Hello beautiful readers, I am currently feeling super motivated and fancied writing while I was in the zone. To be honest, I just want to help as many people as I can with my advice. As I’ve mentioned multiple times I love giving to others, and as Jen Sincero taught me in her book You are a Badass– in giving to others you will undoubtedly recieve an abundance of goods, because that’s the way the Universe works, what you put out you recieve… and I freaking love that!

So I remember when I started University, or even when studying my A Levels that I had a really strong feeling and passion about going to one of Africa’s many countries and getting involved with the wildlife out there. I’ve always been one of those people who sits on the edge of their seat while watching Planet Earth as David Attenborough narrates the life of a penguin, whale or zerba. I love the beauty and complexity of the Earth and nature itself, it’s always been something I’ve held such admiration for. I think growing up in the countryside of Kent in England has contributed to this. Forestry and endless rolling hills are scenes that have become normalised for me but some people dream of in their built up towns or sky-scraper cities.

As I said however this has become normalised to me, I know there’s so much more exotic wildlife out there, and I want to witness it. I’ve never been one to watch a lot of TV, in my opinion I’d rather be experiencing or doing what I’m watching rather than sitting on my bum and commenting on what other people are achieving. I’m not saying I don’t relax and chill out sometimes, but I am such a do’er so I wasn’t just planning on watching David Attenborough narrate about zebras I was going to do it myself.

When I ran into a large sum of money at the end of 2018, I didn’t pay back the student loan I owed immediatly, I didn’t use it to learn to drive which perhaps would have been the ‘sensible’ thing to do. Instead I used it to do something I was super passionate about and knew I would cherish in my heart forever… I BOOKED A TRIP TO SOUTH AFRICA TO WILDLIFE VOLUNTEER.

If you’re new here this is news for you, for those of you who have been here before, your ears are probably bleeding from hearing me talk about this again and I apologise. But I cannot contain my excitement enough!

What I’m trying to say is that sometimes it’s important to go for what feels good rather than what other people are trying to convince you to do, or what might be the ‘sensible’ thing to do. Be wild and crazy, pursue what many would think you were stupid for doing because at the end of the day as long as you’re happy and your soul is content what is there to worry about?

Most people back out of things they truly desire out of fear. Don’t be that person. Make your dreams a reality. Travel through your TV screen, start living the life you’ve always wanted. For me South Africa is the start of something beautiful, it’s the start of a new addiction, an adventure of a lifetime.

I hope you go after what’s calling you too.

All my love,

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

Make your aura glow!

Good morning beautiful world, how are we all today? You know this morning I realised how important it is to look after our bodies and listen to them when they’re trying to tell us something. So I went to the gym bright and early, was working out pretty hard and I was kinda in a rush because I’m on a timed schedule due to train times, and after doing a set of exercises I had an overwhelming feeling of nausea. It’s rare I ever really get this feeling, I mean I’m a little gym fanatic, my body is used to being pushed to its limits, but today it was telling me- nope I’ve had enough it’s time to stop now. Sometimes this is just the laziness within us telling us this, but I knew that my body really wasn’t up to it, I started to feel faint and dizzy and to stop that getting worse I left. Trust your body, don’t push yourself too hard, do what your body is telling you people.

Anyway, that wasn’t what my blog topic is about today, but if that was enough for you and you’ve learnt something that can benefit you that’s great and my jobs done! wisteria.jpeg

Today I wanted to talk to you all about aura’s. So after reading some Oprah Winfrey this morning (which I had stopped doing recently because I had lots of other things to get me writing in my journal) she talked about a mans near death experience, and how just as he was escaping the scene he described these sort of bright lights or auras leaving the bodies of those who had deceased. It was a sad story, a plane exploding, leading to many deaths and few escaping with their lives.

The whole concept of aura’s really stuck with him, and it has now really intrigued me. He explained how some aura’s shone brighter than others. To me this seemed as though the brightness or the aura is our soul leaving our body, and the brighter it shone the more goodness you have done and the more you have followed your soul in your life.

In pursuing love, and by listening to your soul (the little voice in your head which so many of us disregard), following the right feelings we are being guided to the light and our soul will shine brighter as a consequence. Perhaps our souls shine bright from doing good too? At least that’s what I would like to believe. Being empathetic and promoting positivity in everyday life will only help your soul shine brighter because you’re emitting aura postgood energy out to the Universe and to others. This is part of the reason I have fallen in love with volunteering, the whole concept of giving for nothing in return. It makes me feel good, and when I’m working I don’t complain, I relish in the joy of helping others and doing good.

Close your eyes, and envision this light within you, your soul fluttering beside your heart. How brightly would you say you have allowed your aura to shine? If you feel as though every day is becoming a chore and time seems to disappear with little time for you to do what you truly love, change that. If you feel as though your flame, the spark has gone out within you, RE-IGNITE! Find that energy, that love within you, seek gratitude and go after the right feelings. It’s never too late. I realised this when I began pursuing a career in Law at University, my soul wasn’t being fed what it really wanted, I wasn’t buzzing with energy and life and I certainly wasn’t emitting positive energy I was enveloped in darkness, my flame had certainly gone out. But as I just said, there’s always a way out, although it was challenging I changed my path and decided to change course which meant taking a year out. There’s always a way.

If you take anything from this blog post remember this:

The Universe is on your side, it want’s you to achieve your greatest desires and pursue what you love. Your soul deserves to shine bright within you. If you could see your soul how would it look? Would you be happy with it? 

Carpe diem people, keep your eyes bright and your souls even brighter.

All my love, 

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

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Listen to your soul

Good morning beautiful world, I hope no matter where you are in the world or what time zone you’re in that you’re having a blessed day and you have found gratitude and love in everything you’ve been through.

So, today I’m talking about soul listening, and tuning into that little voice that nags inside us every now and then in order to get our attention and make us make the right decision. Some people refer to this as their gut, or their instincts, but deep down I believe this is our soul, our inner wisdom trying to guide us to make ourselves happier beings and go after what we truly desire.

Previously I have mentioned how in following what feels right you will naturally find clouds peaxe.jpgsuccess, that’s because in following the rights, not ignoring them or being blind to them and following the wrongs we are doing what our soul wants us to be doing and following that which makes us truly happy within.

What Oprah reminded my today in my daily self-help book was that when we put time and effort into things which we dislike and find no joy in, we find ourselves getting enwrapped in emotions such as anger or depression. I thought this was an interesting way to view things to be honest, and really emphasises the important of acknowledging the guidance from that little voice in our heads.

If you ever find yourself feeling, depressed or angry, maybe that’s an opporunity for you to assess the situation and ask yourself “Am I doing things that truly make me happy? What is my soul trying to tell me right now through conveying these negative emotions to me?”

The voice can often be quieted down and shut off with the more hectic external lives we lead, for me, the past couple of days have been pretty hectic, if you follow my insta you would know this @hannahzgracee (shameless self promo). In being hectic I found that I was doing less of the things that keep me grounded, keep me focused, keep me positive and following my aspirations. These things for me being my meditation, my journalling, self-help reading and planning the day.

These little things create an inner calm for me, and when you’re leading an extra busy journallingand hectic external life it’s super important to ensure you have that internal calm. Because if you’re being busy, you’re constantly in a rush, your mind will be running at 100mph, the same speed which you’ll be sprinting around trying to get everything done! And when your mind is doing this that little voice, the voice of your soul gets cut off, ignored, overlooked, and this is why so many of us fall into the trap of unhappiness. We get locked down into a job that we hate, or hang out with people who give off lower frequencies than you do.

The importance of grounding yourself, and listening to your soul is crucial to your happiness. Once you find your ways of calming your inner self, you can make changes to your outer self and create the life you’ve always dreamed of by going after those right feelings until you find success!

All my love,

HG

(The broken pearl)