M.I.A

Hello beautiful readers. I want to start off with an apology, I was missing in action last week and I’ll do some explaining on that pretty soon. In complete honesty I wasn’t feeling all myself, and as I’ve said before if I’m not feeling motivated and inspired I don’t feel it’s right to write to you lot and put that negativity out to the world. I’m here to promote love and endless possibilities, not sadness and lost hope.

So, I believe my last post may have been about finding a new job, am I correct? If not it was one of my most recent ones, so if you haven’t read it yet this is me telling you to do so:) . Yes, last week I started this new job, and I went into it a little blinded I suppose, I knew I could make good money if I worked hard at it, and this money would help fund the business of my dreams and help me accumulate the skills I needed to be a leader. So why was I so miserable last week that I couldn’t write when I was starting something that could potentially take me to where I wanted to be?

Because we all know I go off energies and vibes, for me happiness is a soul priority. Some people may think I’m stupid for following these emotions but in my mind if I’m going to be working crazy hours and losing my social life for a job which I don’t partiuarly enjoy, I’d be stupid to stay.

Sometimes things don’t go to plan, and life loves throwing hurdles to test us with how badly we want something. I know that I’m going to be living the life I’ve always craved in a decade from now, I don’t care how long it takes, but I know I’m going to get there. It’s all about maintaining your trust in the Universe and yourself, believe its yours and you’ve got it.

So last week I spent the time to pick myself up and dust myself off, I had my time of wallowing in sadness and getting all emotional because things didn’t seem to be going the way I wanted them to. Today marks a new week, a new start, a new chapter. It’s time to start something new, recentre myself, and remain a badass.

Often when things don’t go how I want, and I seem to be in a bit of a troubled state I always remember Jen Sincero’s book How to Be a Badass, the chapter about the EGO. The EGO will throw obstacles into your life to challenge you and sway you from what you really want, forcing you out of your comfort zone and scaring you into submission. (No the ego is not some menacing monsterous presence, this is all phycological shit). I remember her story about some guy who really wanted to open his own business, so he quit his job which was the first step, then he managed to get two flat tires leaving work, his babysitter ran into his wifes car, the water main under his kithen sink exploded and to top it all off he got hit by a freaking bus. But he still never gave up.

If that doesn’t inspire you I don’t know what will. I need to stick to the plan and keep being myself, that’s all I can do, the Universe will reward me eventually, I just have to keep progressing, keep moving in the right direction. Fall in love with the process of becoming the best version of yourself, because the end result will be amazing.

All my love,

HG

Leap of faith

Hello beautiful readers, today I felt inspired to write since I’m making another big step in my life which is going to really shake things up for me for a while. I’ve got a full time job.

Now some of you may be confused, if you’ve read my stuff for a while now you would know I was all for going back to college, smashing out more education and pursuing something I love. The thing is, I wrote out a list of goals for the long and short-term months and months ago, probably at the start of this year. It dawned on me that in order to pursue these goals I needed to learn a lot of skills, which would only be defferred if I started studying again.

One of the biggest goals on this list is for me to create my own brand, the basic concept being to benefit the environment as much as possible. I love wildlife and the Earth itself, just because I’m no longer going to be studying it doesn’t change that! That is still the goal. I just have to keep my eyes on the prize.

Sometimes we have to work hard at something and learn as much as we can from that to benefit ourselves in the long-term. Life is all about learning new things, it’s how we progress as I said in my most recent post! I want to learn how to manage, learn as many skills as I can, until I’m confident enough to go out there and manage something that I’m really really passionate about.

I’m a 19 year old with some pretty big goals, not dreams, goals.

All it takes is being focused enough to achieve them. Never lose sight of what you desire, and never lose sight of what makes you authentic. It’s super important for me personally to hold onto that. In a high intensity job where I will be under pressure I need to keep my cool and hold onto my beliefs.

This opportunity excites me yet scares me simultaneously, and that’s how I know I should go for it. Because although my anxiety may be bad for a little while, I know it’s only because I’m out of my comfort zone, I’ve become accustomed to a very flexible way of living and that’s about to change. But it doesn’t mean it’ll be that way forever, I mean when I’m running my own business and I’m the highest you can get on that ladder I can have my flexiblity back.

Nothing is set in stone, everything is temporary. Embrace the moment and make every second count, work towards your goals and keep smiling.

All my love,

HG

Lets get uncomfortable

Hello everyone and welcome back to my blog @hannahzgrace I hope you have all had a beautiful day so far. Here in the UK today it is 38 degrees celcius (turning into a weather woman now), and for us British citizens we are not accustomed to this kind of weather. It’s unbearable. We’re used to the rain and grey skies, so this kind of heat killssss us. So here I am in my back garden sipping on some iced water in the shade and still sweating one out. Super British.

The discomfort from this heat today reminded me of a topic I’ve wanting to talk about for a while on my blog, and that is that in order to grow and progress we all need to face a level of discomfort.

This is something I have lived by since reading Jen Sincero’s book How to Be a Badass back in March of this year, and every time I feel myself getting a little too comfortable with something I remind myself that discomfort often leads to progression.

I know that may sound a little harsh and even writing it feels wrong in a sense, because why would we want to make ourselves uncomfortable right? Especially if we’re happy? But just hear me out okay…

So picture your idol in your head, someone really successful who inspires and motivates you to want to pursue your dreams. Whether that’s wanting a killer body like Kendall Jenner or wanting to have the authority and mind of Alan Sugar, it’s all the same.

In order for these people to be as successful as they are do you think the road was easy? For any Kardashian haters out there I’m sure you’re all silently thinking that Kendall Jenner didn’t have to try to become a super-model since her name essentially brought her fame, but I completely disagree with you.

If Kendall Jenner didn’t have the drive and mindset to succeed she wouldn’t have made it, and that’s facts. She had to get out of her comfort zone and face challenges just like the rest of us will in order to reach our long-term goals and achieve our greatest desires.

What I’m trying to say is, in order to progress and better yourself you need to make a habit of/ get used to the feeling of discomfort. Constantly push yourself, and eventually you’ll get to where you want to be.

Often I know if I’m making the right decision based on my gut feeling. Something that excites me, yet scares me and makes me feel uncomfortable is most likely what I’ll go after. Life’s all about learning and bettering yourself, it’s a journey that you make for you and only you. Make it as fulfilling as you can.

Because being uncomfortable is great… just not 38 degree weather.

All my love,

HG

Believing before seeing

So this week I really didn’t know what to write. Shocking. I have been staring at a blank screen for the past 4 days knowing that I should have already posted one blog post and a second one should be underway. But, I have cut myself a little slack and decided not to be too hard on myself.

Truth be told I just have not been feeling motivational enough to write on here, and considering my blog is all about self-help and positivity it didn’t seem fitting that I came on here with shit that wasn’t true from the heart and could actually benefit you guys. That’s when I remembered that by writing I actually become more motivated.

I mean duh, I used to write in my journal every morning in order to phyche myself up for the day ahead to get my mindset focused and the positivity goggles on. But recently I’d stopped doing that, I’ve broken my routine which I had followed religeously for months and it shows on the inside.

On the outside I look just the same, fit, healthy, pretty, whatever. But on the inside, I’ve been on a little roller-coaster of emotions, and this is when I know that I’m losing track a little bit, and fuck falling back into the black hole of misery again, I am never going back there.

So I’ve just picked up one of my favourite books- You Are a Badass by Jen Sincero and have decided to go through it and pick out some of my favourite parts to not only inspire you guys but inspire myself because I freaking need that too.

I’ve gone straight to a page which has been folded, a reminder to myself to come back to this as it’s a juicy part. Sincero’s words of wisdom are…

“The moment you have the audacity to start believing in the not-yet seen, your reality will begin to shift.”

Jen Sincero (The oracle)

I loveeeeee this, the whole concept being that as a society we have everything the wrong way round. We expect to see things before we believe them. But by believing before seeing you are essentially making those things a reality.

This is for the good and bad beliefs, and it’s why whenever my friends are talking negatively about something or creating bad thoughts about something that hasn’t happened I tell them to stop. Because in belieiving something you look for it and it becomes a reality.

You need to have faith in the not-yet seen, and good things will follow. This is essentially the Law of Attraction, and if you don’t know what that is you need to do your research because it’s life-changing.

The energy you put out into the world, you get back. Do yourself a favour and start believing in things that haven’t happened and do everything you can to work towards those things, and the Universe will gift you in time.

Bit of a random one, but I’m just keeping it real with you all, have a beautiful morning, afternoon, evening or night and rememeber to love yourself, because someone needed to hear that today.

All my love,

HG

Fear of the unsuccessful

You know I was asked recently what I was most scared of. Initially I couldn’t think of anything since I’m not the kind of girl who winces at spiders or faints at the sight of blood. For me I’ve always been fearful of being unsuccessful, and I think this is where the whole concept of pressuring myself comes into action.

You see, I take things too seriously sometimes because I’m always striving for more. I’m rarely satisfied because I love to push myself to the maximum, and if I’m working/studying something unfulfilling it really affects me, and I find myself getting frustrated because I’m not at my full potential.

Along with working on living with uncertainty I’m working on living in the present. It’s super important for me and my mental well-being to appreciate the journey, because success doesn’t often happen over-night. I suppose it depends what you determine as ‘success’ too. If success was waking up in the morning with a positive outlook every day I would be successful a lot of the time.

I think part of the problem with my generation is that there’s always a want/need for more. This is due to constant comparison. What we forget is that we should be working towards bettering our lives for ourselves! Not for anyone else, not to be able to compare further and judge each other’s achievements. We are all running our own race in our own time. Love the journey and embrace it, believe that you will make it and you will.

All my love,

HG

Over-coming anxiety- part 5

Hello beautiful world, this is the final post I will be making on over-coming anxiety but if you want more posts like this just let me know in the comment section down below! I’ve been feeling very motivated recently, if you’ve read my last post you’d understand that I’m slowly coming to terms with living with uncertainty and not always having a plan. I just think that by putting all our hopes and dreams into one plan, one direction, if we come across bumps in the road or things don’t go as they ‘should have’ we get dissapointed and more sad than we should do. Personally I think that this was always part of the problem with my own anxiety, my awareness that this may be something I should work on has helped considerably in a recovery from something that got me down more than I realised at first.

So this final post is all about ensuring you’re loving yourself, and that you allow yourself the time you need to heal yourself. The process isn’t going to be over-night, and you will have your wobbles every now and then, but overall you’ll be a better person mentally and physically. Healing anxiety isn’t just about improving mental health, it’s about following your soul and changing your lifestyle for the better. It’s the reason I’m partly against taking medication for it, because in my opinion that’s more of a quick fix, instant help, that won’t heal you internally but give the false impression that you’re doing good. Of course if you’re really struggling and medication is what you need I encourage that! But in order to help yourself in the long-term you need to start getting honest with yourself, dig deep to discover where all this is stemming from, what is laying in your subconscious that is making you anxious?

Over-coming anxiety will be a steady process, and you’ll find a few hurdles along the way that may distract you from your end goal. The most important thing is not to fall and stay down. You pick yourself up every single freaking time and dust yourself off, keep moving, keep progressing, because that’s life! Life will throw hurdles at you, whether it’s in work or personal stuff, it’s going to happen, but you can’t use that as an exuse to stop the process of bettering yourself.

It’s like my breakup—- in case you didn’t realise this is what my The Broken Pearl blog post is about. That was a major hurdle for me, I was the one who did the breaking up but that didn’t make it much easier for me. I know I did the right thing, and I’m still glad I did it, I have no regrets. I gave myself 3 days to mourn and not do much at all, after that I had to start being productive again, and I stuck to it. Don’t wallow in pity and negativity, pick yourself up from that shit because you’re so much better than that. Allow yourself time, set a date when you need to get back on track and stick with it.

Have faith in yourself, if you’re not all for it it’s only going to make it harder for you. Believe you’ll overcome it and you will. I’m a firm believer in the Law of Attraction, the energy you put out to the world you receive. The way I envision it is, when you’re in a good mood and radiating good energy you have on a pair of glasses with lenses which only allow you to see love, colour and positivity. If you’re in a bad mood the negative spectacles come on and that’s all you’ll see… The thing we all forget is that we can change those glasses whenever we like you just have to change your perspective, change your mood, the world is only what you make it. Life is the dancer and you are the dance. Never forget that.

This is the post for you to come back to when you need to become motivated again, because you may need it. If I can do it you sure can, I beleive in youuuuuuuu. Let the journey commense.

All my love,

The Broken Pearl

Make mistakes

Good morning beautiful world, I’m currently at Centre Parcs enjoying a Starbucks whilst everyone else goes swimming. If you’re a girl who fake tans you’ll know that chlorine literally makes you look like a lizard so it’s truly not worth swimming especially since I’ve just re-done my whole body. Anyway…

We all know I went to South Africa recently, nothing new to say about that which I haven’t already said, except that it really did act as a second awakening for me. Sometimes we have to experience things in order to discover if it’s your cup of tea, but not everyone likes tea, some people like coffee. Although I adored South Africa and really appreciated the whole experience it made me realise that I wasn’t overly fussed about studying it in the long-term. 

Arriving back home I had a bit of a breakdown because it felt like I had just taken another 10 steps backwards with how far I had come since February when I stopped my counselling as I felt I had a sense of direction again. Now I was back to square one, what do I want to do with myself? 

And who do I confide in when my mind is troubled? My mum. So we had a long chat about how I felt, because in myself I knew I was unhappy and I had the urge, that gut feeling, that studying animal conservation wasn’t right for me at this moment in time. 

My mum told me something I realised I needed to hear and that was that it’s okay to live with uncertainty and that not everything has to be planned and known for definite. I think because I’m such an organised person 90% of the time this has always been something I’ve struggled with, I’m a bit of a perfectionist I would say and this is because I like winning. I’m a very competitive person you see, which has its pro’s and cons of course. 

Living with uncertainty is kind of a crazy concept for me, but it’s something I’m trying to get better at. I think having anxiety doesn’t help with this, but I don’t think that’s the only reason, as I said I think it’s just my personality to be organised and planned. 

But we don’t always need a freaking plan! Now is the time to make mistakes, to change our minds over and over again until one day we know what we want to do when we’re asked! Who knows what I’m destined to do, I know I’ll be successful at whatever I do but I don’t know what it is yet and that’s okay! Too much pressure is put on the younger generation to know what we want so that we get forced into job roles that don’t suit us or we outgrow. 

It’s never too late to change your mind or change career path. Always trust your gut, follow your soul and find your happiness. One day you’ll know what you want to do, because you’ve made all the mistakes you can, and that’s part of life.

All my love,

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

Over-coming anxiety- part 4

Hello beautiful people, how have you all been? Being out of my routines for so long has left me feeling rather de-motivated and lazy to be honest, and that resulted in me not feeling so good in myself. Today I’ve started a project come back for myself, I went over all the goals I have made for this year and revised how I was going to make them happen, the short-term and the long-term. Since we’re over halfway through the year I would highly encourage this of everyone, go over your resolutions or goals for this year and go over how you’re going to make that happen. It’s super important to stay focused, never lose sight of what you desire.

This all ties into the topic for my fourth post on over-coming anxiety which is staying commited to the routines and little things which help motivate and inspire you, the things that help create a positive mindset for yourself and create a forcefield for negative thoughts and emotions.

We all break routines from time to time and this is normal, it’s also important to remember not to be too hard on yourself if you’re not up for meditating or couldn’t find the time to exercise on one of the 7 days in the week. Being too strict with yourself will only result in these things becoming a chore for you, not things that actually help and relieve you from a troubled mind.

For me my routine includes waking up and not allowing myself to go on my phone for at least an hour. By waking up and immediatly looking at what other people are doing instead of prioritising what you could be doing with yourself, will only distract you from any goals or things you want to get done in the day. Writing a list of things to get done in the day and then writing down how I’m feeling and resolving any problems in my journal is what keeps me focused and positive throughout the day. In immediatly dealing with or emptying you mind of worry in the morning, you are more likely to have a more fulfilled and positive day, as you’re essentially losing the burden of carrying around stress with you.

I can’t emphasise enough in how having a positive mental attitude can change and releive you of anxiety and low mood. Lifestyle change is just as beneficial, becoming more active and eating for wellness and health will naturally help too. But in building a routine of little things such as meditating or going on a daily morning walk which helps calm your mind and ground you will gradually cause improvements with your self-esteem and a decrease in an anxious mind.

Try it out, find out what works for you, write down the routine so that it’s set in stone, try it for 2 weeks, write daily and notice the change and improvements by reflecting back in your journal.

Something I should do more of is reading jounral entries from months ago, sometimes I forget how far I have come with my anxiety. It’s humbling to have been somewhere so dark and low, it makes everything else, any improvement, a day of positivity and love 100X more exciting and I have so much more gratitude for the smaller things. Although we all think our anxiety is a burden from time to time, it makes us ensightful to the smaller things, opening our eyes and finding enjoyment and gratitude in things that would be overlooked by most.

Remember this is a jounrey, don’t expect immediate results, be kind to yourself and be patient. You’ve got this.

All my love,

The Broken Pearl

South African Wildlife!

Hello everyone! Here are some of the photos I promised on my last post from my trip to South Africa. It was a truly amazing experience, pictures simply cannot capture it’s beauty. Enjoy and let me know what you think! I will be back soon with my fourth anxiety help guide post.

To be honest I got more videos than photos which will all be combined into a YouTube video which will be posted on my channel- Hannah Grace- soon! I saw lots more animals than just these few but I wanted to enjoy the present moment when I was there and not live behind the camera or through a screen, I hope you all understand.

All my love,

HG

A more serious blog post

Hello beautiful readers, I hope you’ve all had an amazing day or are currently having an amazing day. I am currently in a siesta in South Africa, so most people are napping before we head out this evening for a night drive which should be exciting. On regular monitoring during the day, the majority of the animals here are passed out sleeping or are just very inactive, this is because it’s cooler in the evenings therefore they are more active then, so tonight should be interesting! 

Being here in South Africa has been really fascinating, it wasn’t quite what I expected but then I didn’t really have any expectations anyway! To be honest I thought I’d cope better with travelling alone because I am a confident person but as I mentioned in my previous post I did struggle for a couple of days. Overall the entire experience has been incredible and I would recommend it to anyone, it’s so refreshing to be outside every day, the scenery here has been insane and of course the wildlife is incredible. It’s actually rather surreal to see animals such as giraffes, elephants and lions in the wild rather than behind a fence at a zoo in small enclosures. Being able to help the local communities too has been wonderful, and every day I learn something new about a species of animal here. The best part is everything is a surprise, you may go out planning on tracking rhinos and come across an entire herd of elephants in the process. I’ll be sharing even more photos at the end of next week once I’m home again, since I have too many to share! 

One of the places I visited this week is called Born Free, a place where rescued big cats can find solitude and finds forever home, after being either abused or mistreated by previous owners. One of the lions, King, was particularly friendly, although this was adorable it was pretty evident that he would never be able to get released into the wild because he was too confident around humans which could lead to him being poached. They have Born Free centres worldwide, places like this really deserve recognition, and although I got to visit as a volunteer these places are not zoo’s, and there was only a small number of us visiting the sanctuary on this morning. I really appreciate the work of places like this, to be able to visit here was a really lovely experience, and although it was sad hearing these cats back stories it was also reassuring to know they are in good hands now.

Another memorable experience this week was seeing a black rhino in the wild, for those who don’t know this species of rhino is particularly endangered, rhinos in general are regularly poached for their horns. For anyone who can it would really be amazing if you could sponsor a rhino or help contribute to this species survival, part of this means spreading awareness that rhino horns don’t have any medicinal value which is believed in many cultures but is false. If we get rid of the consumers there is no need for the product therefore rhino horns wouldn’t be in demand and they wouldn’t be getting poached. 

I know this post was a bit more informative than my others, and I still have lots to talk about with South Africa, but I just felt the need to help everyone understand that this trip wasn’t just for fun I’m educating myself in conservation and helping protect species that may not be around in the next 20 years! We should all spread awareness for animal conservation, because are we really happy with our children only being able to see an elephant or rhino through a picture book? I think not. Have a beautiful week.

All my love, 
HG 
(The Broken Pearl) 

P.S: I apologise for this post being delayed, I have just been very busy here and timing has been a struggle, I hope you understand