Fear of the unsuccessful

You know I was asked recently what I was most scared of. Initially I couldn’t think of anything since I’m not the kind of girl who winces at spiders or faints at the sight of blood. For me I’ve always been fearful of being unsuccessful, and I think this is where the whole concept of pressuring myself comes into action.

You see, I take things too seriously sometimes because I’m always striving for more. I’m rarely satisfied because I love to push myself to the maximum, and if I’m working/studying something unfulfilling it really affects me, and I find myself getting frustrated because I’m not at my full potential.

Along with working on living with uncertainty I’m working on living in the present. It’s super important for me and my mental well-being to appreciate the journey, because success doesn’t often happen over-night. I suppose it depends what you determine as ‘success’ too. If success was waking up in the morning with a positive outlook every day I would be successful a lot of the time.

I think part of the problem with my generation is that there’s always a want/need for more. This is due to constant comparison. What we forget is that we should be working towards bettering our lives for ourselves! Not for anyone else, not to be able to compare further and judge each other’s achievements. We are all running our own race in our own time. Love the journey and embrace it, believe that you will make it and you will.

All my love,

HG

Make your aura glow!

Good morning beautiful world, how are we all today? You know this morning I realised how important it is to look after our bodies and listen to them when they’re trying to tell us something. So I went to the gym bright and early, was working out pretty hard and I was kinda in a rush because I’m on a timed schedule due to train times, and after doing a set of exercises I had an overwhelming feeling of nausea. It’s rare I ever really get this feeling, I mean I’m a little gym fanatic, my body is used to being pushed to its limits, but today it was telling me- nope I’ve had enough it’s time to stop now. Sometimes this is just the laziness within us telling us this, but I knew that my body really wasn’t up to it, I started to feel faint and dizzy and to stop that getting worse I left. Trust your body, don’t push yourself too hard, do what your body is telling you people.

Anyway, that wasn’t what my blog topic is about today, but if that was enough for you and you’ve learnt something that can benefit you that’s great and my jobs done! wisteria.jpeg

Today I wanted to talk to you all about aura’s. So after reading some Oprah Winfrey this morning (which I had stopped doing recently because I had lots of other things to get me writing in my journal) she talked about a mans near death experience, and how just as he was escaping the scene he described these sort of bright lights or auras leaving the bodies of those who had deceased. It was a sad story, a plane exploding, leading to many deaths and few escaping with their lives.

The whole concept of aura’s really stuck with him, and it has now really intrigued me. He explained how some aura’s shone brighter than others. To me this seemed as though the brightness or the aura is our soul leaving our body, and the brighter it shone the more goodness you have done and the more you have followed your soul in your life.

In pursuing love, and by listening to your soul (the little voice in your head which so many of us disregard), following the right feelings we are being guided to the light and our soul will shine brighter as a consequence. Perhaps our souls shine bright from doing good too? At least that’s what I would like to believe. Being empathetic and promoting positivity in everyday life will only help your soul shine brighter because you’re emitting aura postgood energy out to the Universe and to others. This is part of the reason I have fallen in love with volunteering, the whole concept of giving for nothing in return. It makes me feel good, and when I’m working I don’t complain, I relish in the joy of helping others and doing good.

Close your eyes, and envision this light within you, your soul fluttering beside your heart. How brightly would you say you have allowed your aura to shine? If you feel as though every day is becoming a chore and time seems to disappear with little time for you to do what you truly love, change that. If you feel as though your flame, the spark has gone out within you, RE-IGNITE! Find that energy, that love within you, seek gratitude and go after the right feelings. It’s never too late. I realised this when I began pursuing a career in Law at University, my soul wasn’t being fed what it really wanted, I wasn’t buzzing with energy and life and I certainly wasn’t emitting positive energy I was enveloped in darkness, my flame had certainly gone out. But as I just said, there’s always a way out, although it was challenging I changed my path and decided to change course which meant taking a year out. There’s always a way.

If you take anything from this blog post remember this:

The Universe is on your side, it want’s you to achieve your greatest desires and pursue what you love. Your soul deserves to shine bright within you. If you could see your soul how would it look? Would you be happy with it? 

Carpe diem people, keep your eyes bright and your souls even brighter.

All my love, 

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

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The Broken Pearl

Hello everyone, today’s blog post is going to be a bit more raw than all the others. I’m getting deep with you guys, because I’m majorly in my feelings.

Why am I sad? That doesn’t even need to be said, all I have to say is that my heart is aching badly and all I want to do is curl up in a black hole and hibernate for a year to get through this pain… From this I assume you understand my situation right? If you don’t I’m sure you can all relate to this is one way or another.

dark ocean.jpgI’m just having a very bad day today, which seems impossible for someone who always seem’s upbeat and writes about self-help all the time. Well even people like me have our off days, and it is shitty but right now I really can’t find the motivation to do anything, but I know that writing seriously helps me so that’s what I’m doing, and because I get to basically talk to you guys about it and that’s what I need right now.

It’s tough not knowing if you’ve made the right decision or not, but as Oprah Winfrey once said you have to understand your intention before making a decision. I think I have made my decision, I need more space to grow into the better person I want to become and I believe being without my partner will allow me to do that.

The whole point of me vomiting all this onto a page for you guys is to prove that no ones perfect. We all make poor decisions from time to time, and have days when were not feeling up to doing anything, days when getting out of bed is our biggest achievement, and that’s FREAKING OKAY. We can’t put the pressure on ourselves or expect ourselves to be motivated and super inspired every single f-ing day of the year, because it’s not physically possible. Life is going to throw obstacles at you every now and then, and you’ll undergo a rollercoaster of emotions in order to smash that obstacle down.

pearl 1.jpgOur imperfections make us human, our poor decisions make us human, our mistakes make us human. We are all broken pearls, or pearls with tiny cracks in them. Pearl’s are often idealised and symbolic as perfect because they’re spherical and fine, we all wish we could be that un-cracked polished and dazzling pearl. But in reality we all have a few cracks and scars, and that’s because were human, and it shows that we’ve lived!

Today I realised this, and that not every day can go as smoothly as you’d like. I didn’t expect to write a blog post on bloody pearls but here we are! I’m sorry if this isn’t what you came on here for, but I’m just keeping it real with you guys.

All my love, 

HG

(the broken pearl)