Fear of the unsuccessful

You know I was asked recently what I was most scared of. Initially I couldn’t think of anything since I’m not the kind of girl who winces at spiders or faints at the sight of blood. For me I’ve always been fearful of being unsuccessful, and I think this is where the whole concept of pressuring myself comes into action.

You see, I take things too seriously sometimes because I’m always striving for more. I’m rarely satisfied because I love to push myself to the maximum, and if I’m working/studying something unfulfilling it really affects me, and I find myself getting frustrated because I’m not at my full potential.

Along with working on living with uncertainty I’m working on living in the present. It’s super important for me and my mental well-being to appreciate the journey, because success doesn’t often happen over-night. I suppose it depends what you determine as ‘success’ too. If success was waking up in the morning with a positive outlook every day I would be successful a lot of the time.

I think part of the problem with my generation is that there’s always a want/need for more. This is due to constant comparison. What we forget is that we should be working towards bettering our lives for ourselves! Not for anyone else, not to be able to compare further and judge each other’s achievements. We are all running our own race in our own time. Love the journey and embrace it, believe that you will make it and you will.

All my love,

HG

Over-coming anxiety part 3

I just wanted to start this post by saying that although you may perceive this series as a sign that I’m 100% clear of anxiety this is not the case, and that’s normal. Your anxiety makes you who you are and sometimes it may pop up to say hello. It’s just learning to manage it and control it, it’s important not to fear your anxiety but treat it as a part of you, remember it doesn’t have to be a negative. Travelling to South Africa last week was rather hard for me I’m not going to lie to you guys, I had a bit of a panic on my second plane journey and as soon as I got here had a mini panic about making friends and did experience a wave of anxiety for a couple of days.
Obviously it’s hard and it’s frustrating because I’ve come so far you know, I’m a changed person to how I was a few months ago and all it takes is for me to be 5,000 miles from home, on my own and I start to forget everything I’ve taught myself. 

This is why having routines and understanding yourself comes into play, all you need is a few things that you can do that will help ground you to the present. I find that the reason I get anxious or low is because I look ahead too far into the future, and forget to appreciate the present moment. Living and breathing the present is so freaking important! I preach it. As cliché as it may sound I find that this is one of the biggest ways of overcoming anxiety, and you can help yourself do this in various ways, all it takes is a bit of experimenting and time and eventually you’ll be an expert at mastering gratitude for the present moment. 

This may all sound a little mad, but I find that it has helped me considerably, even if you don’t have anxiety this is something we should all work on! So often we forget to appreciate everything happening around us now, because we’re either thinking ahead or we’re sucked into our phone screens becoming caught up in other people’s lives rather than our own!

So these are the tricks I have learnt to help become present: MEDITATION- I will always swear by meditation, even though I may not do it every day I know that by quietening your mind you will cut that thought process of worry and far-thinking and this will help ground you to the present. 
BEING OUTSIDE- I know this may sound silly but in being outside you get to appreciate more, and distract your mind, fresh air is also really good for clearing your head. Being in an enclosed room by yourself will only worsen your anxiety, get yourself outside, go for a walk and appreciate your surroundings.
FOCUS ON YOUR BREATH- again it may sound silly but simply closing your eyes and focusing on your breath will again help break the thought process of overthinking, you can seek gratitude for the health of your body and the air that you breathe. I’m not crazy I swear, it’s just the little things that can help you out here!
START WRITING A GRATITUDE JOURNAL- this will seriously help you, because writing a list of at least 3 things in the day that you’re grateful for will help ground your throughout the day, because you’ll be paying attention to the little things that make your day such as a smile from a stranger or appreciation for the book you’re reading. 

Of course you can come up with your own ways of becoming grounded and present, these are just my own personal ways of finding appreciation and calming my mind. I hope you’re all having an amazing morning, afternoon, evening or night wherever you are in the world! I’ll be back again with another post about South Africa towards the end of this week.

All my love,
HG 
(The Broken Pearl )

Finding a greater sense of gratitude

Hello beautiful world from the other side of the world for a change, I’m writing from South Africa this morning but still wanted to post a second blog for the week. It’s winter in the Southern Hemisphere and sometimes the temperatures here make me want to go back to England, since it’s summer there right now, and I never thought I’d be saying that! To top it off the showers are either freezing cold or boiling hot, and when you’re getting up at 6 in the morning and it’s freezing I can tell you a cold shower is not appealing…

That being said it has been such a memorable experience so far, even though it’s only been three days I have seen so much wildlife, and the culture here is unbelievably different. Yesterday for example we went to the local town near the reserve I’m staying at in order to do some volunteering for the local community. We were painting some of the playground for the children since it looked a bit worse for wear and needed a lick of paint. Arriving in this place that was considered a town was astounding, we all see the advertisements on TV of places with litter everywhere, tin cans for houses and stray dogs wandering around but until you see them it doesn’t really hit you. It makes everything sort of shift into perspective, and makes you see greater gratitude in everything, it made me appreciate what I have even more.

I have such admiration for the children in this town, who as soon as we got off the trucks were immediately giving hugs, they constantly had smiles on their faces when the only entertainment they had was each other and some plastic. It was amazing to see the entertainment they got from playing with used water bottles, and made you think how kids back home always want the latest things the newest technology, how materialistic our society has become. The sad thing is these kids didn’t know any different, they’re confined to this town in the middle of nowhere to be honest it was upsetting. Painting their playground would make their day, and it was such an amazing feeling to know you’re making someone else’s day, week, even month that bit better and more exciting. 

This is the pleasure of giving, with giving comes gratitude, visiting that local town really moved me, and made me realise how insignificant our problems are back home when some of these people may not even know how they’re going to afford their dinner. Just as we were leaving the town this one guy was literally begging for 5 rand to buy bread because he was so hungry, that will stay with me forever. 

I’ll make sure to tell you about future experiences out here, more environmental stuff! This week just happened to be more community based, but next week I’ll be doing more game drives and animal tracking.

Keep spreading love and helping others, and you’ll naturally see gratitude in everything around you.

All my love, 

HG

Over-coming anxiety: Part 1

So… The big, scary, intimidating yet often overused word of ANXIETY. In this day and age it seems as though everyone has anxiety, yet it doesn’t get talked about, normalised or accepted enough.

In this series of blog posts I’m going to talk to you guys about my experiences of having anxiety, and how I’ve ‘cured’ myself in a sense. I truly do feel like a better person for it, and although counselling is an amazing option and should be considered you don’t necessarily need it. In the advice that I give, and the support we can give each other in the comments or over email, we’re going to make you into the best version of yourself you can possibly be!

So as I’ve mentioned to you all previously I have in the recent year suffered from anxiety which spiralled into a form of depression for me. If you met me now you would never guess it, and this is the problem with mental health, people don’t see past what you give them on the exterior. Even in my worst most darkest periods I continued to keep up the smile even though I was broken on the inside, it’s why I call myself the Broken Pearl because we all have our cracks and flaws and that’s what makes us beautiful.

For me my anxiety was a subconcsious thing for many years, looking back to when I was as young as 10 I would have panic attacks in the middle of lessons. The feeling of my lungs filling up with water, sweating, struggling to breathe, while somehow remaining that calm exterior, convincing myself this was normal and that it wasn’t something I should be concerned about. This is the problem, there isn’t enough recognition for mental health, if I had known from that age that this was anxiety I could have prevented rather than had the trouble of curing my really bad anxiety in my early adult-hood!

The first step to over-coming anxiety is not allowing yourself to be ignorant to it, it’s about having the awareness that you may need help and that this is something that needs to be fixed in a sense. However, your anxiety does not have to be a negative, it does not make you a broken person. As I said earlier when I related us all to broken pearls, our cracks aren’t flaws they make us into our perfect beautiful selves, you can make your anxiety into a positive.

Fuck it, I’m grateful for the fact I have and have had severe anxiety. There I said it. For me my anxiety has been a turning point in my life, it was a wake up call that I was on the wrong track and it turned me around, re-awakening me to new joys and a new perspective on life. I truly believe a third eye for me was opened through my anxiety, and I became connected to my spirituality. I will forever be grateful for that, and you will be too, the moment you recognise your anxiety and give into it, accept it, is the moment everything changes.

All my love,

The Broken Pearl

Make your aura glow!

Good morning beautiful world, how are we all today? You know this morning I realised how important it is to look after our bodies and listen to them when they’re trying to tell us something. So I went to the gym bright and early, was working out pretty hard and I was kinda in a rush because I’m on a timed schedule due to train times, and after doing a set of exercises I had an overwhelming feeling of nausea. It’s rare I ever really get this feeling, I mean I’m a little gym fanatic, my body is used to being pushed to its limits, but today it was telling me- nope I’ve had enough it’s time to stop now. Sometimes this is just the laziness within us telling us this, but I knew that my body really wasn’t up to it, I started to feel faint and dizzy and to stop that getting worse I left. Trust your body, don’t push yourself too hard, do what your body is telling you people.

Anyway, that wasn’t what my blog topic is about today, but if that was enough for you and you’ve learnt something that can benefit you that’s great and my jobs done! wisteria.jpeg

Today I wanted to talk to you all about aura’s. So after reading some Oprah Winfrey this morning (which I had stopped doing recently because I had lots of other things to get me writing in my journal) she talked about a mans near death experience, and how just as he was escaping the scene he described these sort of bright lights or auras leaving the bodies of those who had deceased. It was a sad story, a plane exploding, leading to many deaths and few escaping with their lives.

The whole concept of aura’s really stuck with him, and it has now really intrigued me. He explained how some aura’s shone brighter than others. To me this seemed as though the brightness or the aura is our soul leaving our body, and the brighter it shone the more goodness you have done and the more you have followed your soul in your life.

In pursuing love, and by listening to your soul (the little voice in your head which so many of us disregard), following the right feelings we are being guided to the light and our soul will shine brighter as a consequence. Perhaps our souls shine bright from doing good too? At least that’s what I would like to believe. Being empathetic and promoting positivity in everyday life will only help your soul shine brighter because you’re emitting aura postgood energy out to the Universe and to others. This is part of the reason I have fallen in love with volunteering, the whole concept of giving for nothing in return. It makes me feel good, and when I’m working I don’t complain, I relish in the joy of helping others and doing good.

Close your eyes, and envision this light within you, your soul fluttering beside your heart. How brightly would you say you have allowed your aura to shine? If you feel as though every day is becoming a chore and time seems to disappear with little time for you to do what you truly love, change that. If you feel as though your flame, the spark has gone out within you, RE-IGNITE! Find that energy, that love within you, seek gratitude and go after the right feelings. It’s never too late. I realised this when I began pursuing a career in Law at University, my soul wasn’t being fed what it really wanted, I wasn’t buzzing with energy and life and I certainly wasn’t emitting positive energy I was enveloped in darkness, my flame had certainly gone out. But as I just said, there’s always a way out, although it was challenging I changed my path and decided to change course which meant taking a year out. There’s always a way.

If you take anything from this blog post remember this:

The Universe is on your side, it want’s you to achieve your greatest desires and pursue what you love. Your soul deserves to shine bright within you. If you could see your soul how would it look? Would you be happy with it? 

Carpe diem people, keep your eyes bright and your souls even brighter.

All my love, 

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

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Listen to your soul

Good morning beautiful world, I hope no matter where you are in the world or what time zone you’re in that you’re having a blessed day and you have found gratitude and love in everything you’ve been through.

So, today I’m talking about soul listening, and tuning into that little voice that nags inside us every now and then in order to get our attention and make us make the right decision. Some people refer to this as their gut, or their instincts, but deep down I believe this is our soul, our inner wisdom trying to guide us to make ourselves happier beings and go after what we truly desire.

Previously I have mentioned how in following what feels right you will naturally find clouds peaxe.jpgsuccess, that’s because in following the rights, not ignoring them or being blind to them and following the wrongs we are doing what our soul wants us to be doing and following that which makes us truly happy within.

What Oprah reminded my today in my daily self-help book was that when we put time and effort into things which we dislike and find no joy in, we find ourselves getting enwrapped in emotions such as anger or depression. I thought this was an interesting way to view things to be honest, and really emphasises the important of acknowledging the guidance from that little voice in our heads.

If you ever find yourself feeling, depressed or angry, maybe that’s an opporunity for you to assess the situation and ask yourself “Am I doing things that truly make me happy? What is my soul trying to tell me right now through conveying these negative emotions to me?”

The voice can often be quieted down and shut off with the more hectic external lives we lead, for me, the past couple of days have been pretty hectic, if you follow my insta you would know this @hannahzgracee (shameless self promo). In being hectic I found that I was doing less of the things that keep me grounded, keep me focused, keep me positive and following my aspirations. These things for me being my meditation, my journalling, self-help reading and planning the day.

These little things create an inner calm for me, and when you’re leading an extra busy journallingand hectic external life it’s super important to ensure you have that internal calm. Because if you’re being busy, you’re constantly in a rush, your mind will be running at 100mph, the same speed which you’ll be sprinting around trying to get everything done! And when your mind is doing this that little voice, the voice of your soul gets cut off, ignored, overlooked, and this is why so many of us fall into the trap of unhappiness. We get locked down into a job that we hate, or hang out with people who give off lower frequencies than you do.

The importance of grounding yourself, and listening to your soul is crucial to your happiness. Once you find your ways of calming your inner self, you can make changes to your outer self and create the life you’ve always dreamed of by going after those right feelings until you find success!

All my love,

HG

(The broken pearl)

THE EASIEST WAY TO RELIEVE STRESS

Good afternoon everyone from the UK! I hope you’re all having a beautiful day, I have to say today I was feeling a bit tired and under the weather. It’s Friday, and I’ve been working of course, it’s easy to feel de-motivated and fed up. But I stick to my routines and do the best I can to keep positive and energised, most importantly though I don’t put too much pressure on myself to achieve too much in the day otherwise you’re effectively setting yourself up for failure… and a lot of stress.

Speaking of stress, I was rather stressed last night. My flight got bloody messed up for South Africa which would mean I now have to travel 16 hours in a car to get to the Game Reserve I wanted to volunteer at. Then we had the dilemmas of ringing up the airlines and trying to find a solution, and there wasn’t one, we would simply have to cancel and airplane and beachre-book a £600 flight and f*** that. I went up to get ready to bed all tight chested, confused and anxious that I wouldn’t be able to go to South Africa, and that really scared me.

If you have watched my YouTube video (Hannah Grace: Get to Know me Tag) or read previous blog posts of mine you would know that volunteering on a Game Reserve or with big cats in South Africa has been something I’ve been raving about since forever! It’s something I would potentially like to pursue a career in, to become a manager of a conservation park, restoring biodiversity and treating sick exotic animals would be a dream for me. Therefore you can understand why I was so stressed with the whole flight situation.

Relieving yourself of stress can be easily done, you just have to get yourself in the correct mindset. Sometimes all you have to do is take a step back, breathe and assess the situation. Often when one thing goes wrong we immediately escalate the situation in our heads. For instance, when I realised my flight might have to get cancelled I immediatly started fretting that I wouldn’t be able to go to South Africa, and that my parents (love them to bits) would lose out on £600 for the flight they brought me.

However, it’s not always as easy as that (I know I sound like I’m contradicting what I just said but hear me out people) sometimes we need to just get into our own space, take ourselves away from the situation andddddd…. MEDITATE. WOW what a big scary word and concept for some people!!! But we don’t need to be scared or resent meditation, it’s essentially the art of doing nothing, and tuning into Source Energy which literally means being at an inner peace and finding your calm.

After the whole South Africa mishap I was struggling to distract myself from the never-giraffesending streams of worries in my head, having a very anxious past means I find I can be particularly susceptible to getting anxious easily if I’m in the wrong mind-set. So, I took myself up to my bed, plugged in some earphones (wireless are even better) and with my app Calm I followed a guided meditation practice… and I kid you not I felt like I left my body!!!

The relaxation and meditation were exactly what I needed, I got to the point where I reached the ZONE the ultimate form of peace. All you have to do is follow your breathing and shut down your mind, this isn’t something that comes easily, and I’ve been practicing meditation for months before I reached this point. But even without the ZONE you’ll find yourself a lot more present and grounded than you were before, resulting in a calmer more rational mindset, where endless possibilities arise.

After meditating I convinced myself that I would still go to Africa and have an amazing time, and on the next day, BEHOLD I was offered a place on a different 5* reserve right near the airport I was flying to, at not additional cost!!!

This shit works guys, it’s all about changing your mindset, and mediation is the key to this, it can literally change your life.

All my love,

HG