Hello everyone, today’s blog post is going to be a bit more raw than all the others. I’m getting deep with you guys, because I’m majorly in my feelings.
Why am I sad? That doesn’t even need to be said, all I have to say is that my heart is aching badly and all I want to do is curl up in a black hole and hibernate for a year to get through this pain… From this I assume you understand my situation right? If you don’t I’m sure you can all relate to this is one way or another.
I’m just having a very bad day today, which seems impossible for someone who always seem’s upbeat and writes about self-help all the time. Well even people like me have our off days, and it is shitty but right now I really can’t find the motivation to do anything, but I know that writing seriously helps me so that’s what I’m doing, and because I get to basically talk to you guys about it and that’s what I need right now.
It’s tough not knowing if you’ve made the right decision or not, but as Oprah Winfrey once said you have to understand your intention before making a decision. I think I have made my decision, I need more space to grow into the better person I want to become and I believe being without my partner will allow me to do that.
The whole point of me vomiting all this onto a page for you guys is to prove that no ones perfect. We all make poor decisions from time to time, and have days when were not feeling up to doing anything, days when getting out of bed is our biggest achievement, and that’s FREAKING OKAY. We can’t put the pressure on ourselves or expect ourselves to be motivated and super inspired every single f-ing day of the year, because it’s not physically possible. Life is going to throw obstacles at you every now and then, and you’ll undergo a rollercoaster of emotions in order to smash that obstacle down.
Our imperfections make us human, our poor decisions make us human, our mistakes make us human. We are all broken pearls, or pearls with tiny cracks in them. Pearl’s are often idealised and symbolic as perfect because they’re spherical and fine, we all wish we could be that un-cracked polished and dazzling pearl. But in reality we all have a few cracks and scars, and that’s because were human, and it shows that we’ve lived!
Today I realised this, and that not every day can go as smoothly as you’d like. I didn’t expect to write a blog post on bloody pearls but here we are! I’m sorry if this isn’t what you came on here for, but I’m just keeping it real with you guys.
All my love,