Make mistakes

Good morning beautiful world, I’m currently at Centre Parcs enjoying a Starbucks whilst everyone else goes swimming. If you’re a girl who fake tans you’ll know that chlorine literally makes you look like a lizard so it’s truly not worth swimming especially since I’ve just re-done my whole body. Anyway…

We all know I went to South Africa recently, nothing new to say about that which I haven’t already said, except that it really did act as a second awakening for me. Sometimes we have to experience things in order to discover if it’s your cup of tea, but not everyone likes tea, some people like coffee. Although I adored South Africa and really appreciated the whole experience it made me realise that I wasn’t overly fussed about studying it in the long-term. 

Arriving back home I had a bit of a breakdown because it felt like I had just taken another 10 steps backwards with how far I had come since February when I stopped my counselling as I felt I had a sense of direction again. Now I was back to square one, what do I want to do with myself? 

And who do I confide in when my mind is troubled? My mum. So we had a long chat about how I felt, because in myself I knew I was unhappy and I had the urge, that gut feeling, that studying animal conservation wasn’t right for me at this moment in time. 

My mum told me something I realised I needed to hear and that was that it’s okay to live with uncertainty and that not everything has to be planned and known for definite. I think because I’m such an organised person 90% of the time this has always been something I’ve struggled with, I’m a bit of a perfectionist I would say and this is because I like winning. I’m a very competitive person you see, which has its pro’s and cons of course. 

Living with uncertainty is kind of a crazy concept for me, but it’s something I’m trying to get better at. I think having anxiety doesn’t help with this, but I don’t think that’s the only reason, as I said I think it’s just my personality to be organised and planned. 

But we don’t always need a freaking plan! Now is the time to make mistakes, to change our minds over and over again until one day we know what we want to do when we’re asked! Who knows what I’m destined to do, I know I’ll be successful at whatever I do but I don’t know what it is yet and that’s okay! Too much pressure is put on the younger generation to know what we want so that we get forced into job roles that don’t suit us or we outgrow. 

It’s never too late to change your mind or change career path. Always trust your gut, follow your soul and find your happiness. One day you’ll know what you want to do, because you’ve made all the mistakes you can, and that’s part of life.

All my love,

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

Over-coming anxiety part 3

I just wanted to start this post by saying that although you may perceive this series as a sign that I’m 100% clear of anxiety this is not the case, and that’s normal. Your anxiety makes you who you are and sometimes it may pop up to say hello. It’s just learning to manage it and control it, it’s important not to fear your anxiety but treat it as a part of you, remember it doesn’t have to be a negative. Travelling to South Africa last week was rather hard for me I’m not going to lie to you guys, I had a bit of a panic on my second plane journey and as soon as I got here had a mini panic about making friends and did experience a wave of anxiety for a couple of days.
Obviously it’s hard and it’s frustrating because I’ve come so far you know, I’m a changed person to how I was a few months ago and all it takes is for me to be 5,000 miles from home, on my own and I start to forget everything I’ve taught myself. 

This is why having routines and understanding yourself comes into play, all you need is a few things that you can do that will help ground you to the present. I find that the reason I get anxious or low is because I look ahead too far into the future, and forget to appreciate the present moment. Living and breathing the present is so freaking important! I preach it. As cliché as it may sound I find that this is one of the biggest ways of overcoming anxiety, and you can help yourself do this in various ways, all it takes is a bit of experimenting and time and eventually you’ll be an expert at mastering gratitude for the present moment. 

This may all sound a little mad, but I find that it has helped me considerably, even if you don’t have anxiety this is something we should all work on! So often we forget to appreciate everything happening around us now, because we’re either thinking ahead or we’re sucked into our phone screens becoming caught up in other people’s lives rather than our own!

So these are the tricks I have learnt to help become present: MEDITATION- I will always swear by meditation, even though I may not do it every day I know that by quietening your mind you will cut that thought process of worry and far-thinking and this will help ground you to the present. 
BEING OUTSIDE- I know this may sound silly but in being outside you get to appreciate more, and distract your mind, fresh air is also really good for clearing your head. Being in an enclosed room by yourself will only worsen your anxiety, get yourself outside, go for a walk and appreciate your surroundings.
FOCUS ON YOUR BREATH- again it may sound silly but simply closing your eyes and focusing on your breath will again help break the thought process of overthinking, you can seek gratitude for the health of your body and the air that you breathe. I’m not crazy I swear, it’s just the little things that can help you out here!
START WRITING A GRATITUDE JOURNAL- this will seriously help you, because writing a list of at least 3 things in the day that you’re grateful for will help ground your throughout the day, because you’ll be paying attention to the little things that make your day such as a smile from a stranger or appreciation for the book you’re reading. 

Of course you can come up with your own ways of becoming grounded and present, these are just my own personal ways of finding appreciation and calming my mind. I hope you’re all having an amazing morning, afternoon, evening or night wherever you are in the world! I’ll be back again with another post about South Africa towards the end of this week.

All my love,
HG 
(The Broken Pearl )

Healthy, Motivational Morning Routine 2019

Hello beautiful people, today although the weather is poor in Kent I still made myself go on a morning run since I knew it would make me feel more refreshed and alive… and then it started to rain as soon as I left and I got a little wet.. BUT it was still exhilarating and got me fired up for the day ahead!

Today I wanted to enlighten you all on my morning routine, which I tend to religiously stick to because I know I always feel 100 times better for doing so. So if you want to feel like a badass every day continue reading!

So what’s my secret to feeling motivated 90% of the time? (And I say 90% because I’msuccess not going to be dishonest with you all and say that I’m always happy because I’m not a good liar) I wake up and I don’t allow myself to go on my phone, comparison can quite often be the thief of joy, if you immediately wake up and focus on yourself you are going to feel more inspired and motivated to get shit done and that’s the truth. Always spend time on yourself rather than looking at what other people are doing.

Setting small goals! Next up I open up my little #success planner (because I’m that cool😎) and begin setting myself tasks to do for the day. These things can start off as small as reading your book for 15 minutes before bed, they don’t have to be huge achievements, make the goals realistic otherwise you’ll set yourself up for failure and no one wants that! For me for instance- today one of my goals was to write a new blog post which is exactly what I’m doing now, another was to hit the gym this afternoon. Even setting the goal of maintaining a positive attitude at work is an achievement, practicing mindfulness. These are all easy-going achievements that will help keep you focused and motivated throughout the day.

Get yourself hyped!✨ Next up read something motivational, on days where I’m not feeling up to reading a chapter of a book I read a quote and get inspiration from that. The importance of this is to get someone else’s perspective and guidance, use what they say or the quote that you’ve read as a mantra throughout the day, remember it carry it with you let it inspire you. For me for example, today after reading some of Oprah Winfrey’s book called What I know for Sure I felt inspired to be strong and independent, to step out of my comfort zone in order to keep improving myself!

Let the creative juices flow onto paper!⭐️ I find writing in a journal such a release for any emotional tension I may be holding onto, but also as a little motivational book that I can go back to when I’m not feeling too great in myself. After reading a chapter from my book there’s always something for me to write about, today I wrote about how recently I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone massively by deciding it’s best that I become a single lady! That was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make but I know I’m better for it, I know in losing my safety net I can grow into a better person and become stronger, more sure of myself. More free.

Get going!💫 Sometimes I may meditate as well in the mornings however I often find that mediating in the evening helps more, since it allows me to alleviate myself of any stress or tension that has built up throughout the day. After journalling you can get on with your list, start going after what you love, do things that get you excited and give you energy. Fall in love with becoming the best version of yourself, and know in your heart you’re doing amazing.

All my love,

HG

(The Broken Pearl)

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Listen to your soul

Good morning beautiful world, I hope no matter where you are in the world or what time zone you’re in that you’re having a blessed day and you have found gratitude and love in everything you’ve been through.

So, today I’m talking about soul listening, and tuning into that little voice that nags inside us every now and then in order to get our attention and make us make the right decision. Some people refer to this as their gut, or their instincts, but deep down I believe this is our soul, our inner wisdom trying to guide us to make ourselves happier beings and go after what we truly desire.

Previously I have mentioned how in following what feels right you will naturally find clouds peaxe.jpgsuccess, that’s because in following the rights, not ignoring them or being blind to them and following the wrongs we are doing what our soul wants us to be doing and following that which makes us truly happy within.

What Oprah reminded my today in my daily self-help book was that when we put time and effort into things which we dislike and find no joy in, we find ourselves getting enwrapped in emotions such as anger or depression. I thought this was an interesting way to view things to be honest, and really emphasises the important of acknowledging the guidance from that little voice in our heads.

If you ever find yourself feeling, depressed or angry, maybe that’s an opporunity for you to assess the situation and ask yourself “Am I doing things that truly make me happy? What is my soul trying to tell me right now through conveying these negative emotions to me?”

The voice can often be quieted down and shut off with the more hectic external lives we lead, for me, the past couple of days have been pretty hectic, if you follow my insta you would know this @hannahzgracee (shameless self promo). In being hectic I found that I was doing less of the things that keep me grounded, keep me focused, keep me positive and following my aspirations. These things for me being my meditation, my journalling, self-help reading and planning the day.

These little things create an inner calm for me, and when you’re leading an extra busy journallingand hectic external life it’s super important to ensure you have that internal calm. Because if you’re being busy, you’re constantly in a rush, your mind will be running at 100mph, the same speed which you’ll be sprinting around trying to get everything done! And when your mind is doing this that little voice, the voice of your soul gets cut off, ignored, overlooked, and this is why so many of us fall into the trap of unhappiness. We get locked down into a job that we hate, or hang out with people who give off lower frequencies than you do.

The importance of grounding yourself, and listening to your soul is crucial to your happiness. Once you find your ways of calming your inner self, you can make changes to your outer self and create the life you’ve always dreamed of by going after those right feelings until you find success!

All my love,

HG

(The broken pearl)

The Broken Pearl

Hello everyone, today’s blog post is going to be a bit more raw than all the others. I’m getting deep with you guys, because I’m majorly in my feelings.

Why am I sad? That doesn’t even need to be said, all I have to say is that my heart is aching badly and all I want to do is curl up in a black hole and hibernate for a year to get through this pain… From this I assume you understand my situation right? If you don’t I’m sure you can all relate to this is one way or another.

dark ocean.jpgI’m just having a very bad day today, which seems impossible for someone who always seem’s upbeat and writes about self-help all the time. Well even people like me have our off days, and it is shitty but right now I really can’t find the motivation to do anything, but I know that writing seriously helps me so that’s what I’m doing, and because I get to basically talk to you guys about it and that’s what I need right now.

It’s tough not knowing if you’ve made the right decision or not, but as Oprah Winfrey once said you have to understand your intention before making a decision. I think I have made my decision, I need more space to grow into the better person I want to become and I believe being without my partner will allow me to do that.

The whole point of me vomiting all this onto a page for you guys is to prove that no ones perfect. We all make poor decisions from time to time, and have days when were not feeling up to doing anything, days when getting out of bed is our biggest achievement, and that’s FREAKING OKAY. We can’t put the pressure on ourselves or expect ourselves to be motivated and super inspired every single f-ing day of the year, because it’s not physically possible. Life is going to throw obstacles at you every now and then, and you’ll undergo a rollercoaster of emotions in order to smash that obstacle down.

pearl 1.jpgOur imperfections make us human, our poor decisions make us human, our mistakes make us human. We are all broken pearls, or pearls with tiny cracks in them. Pearl’s are often idealised and symbolic as perfect because they’re spherical and fine, we all wish we could be that un-cracked polished and dazzling pearl. But in reality we all have a few cracks and scars, and that’s because were human, and it shows that we’ve lived!

Today I realised this, and that not every day can go as smoothly as you’d like. I didn’t expect to write a blog post on bloody pearls but here we are! I’m sorry if this isn’t what you came on here for, but I’m just keeping it real with you guys.

All my love, 

HG

(the broken pearl)

How Volunteering can boost your CV and your self-love

Hello everyone, and a happy Monday to you all! I know Monday’s may seem like a drag, and understandably so, it’s a reality check of going back to work and getting on your grind again. But if you shift your perspective a little, we can all be thankful for Monday’s, since they’re an opportunity for a fresh start. A new week, full of lots of opportunities at the touch of your fingertips, all you have to do is have the confidence to seize them for yourself!

Now, onto the topic of volunteering today. This is something I’ve wanted to talk about since forever, because volunteering has genuinely changed my life, and makes me feel 10000X better about myself. Not only this but it also looks very snazzy to future employers, giving your precious time away out of the good of your heart, now that’s appealing!!!

Why did I volunteer? First of all I just want to start by saying that I understand it may be harder for those of you who work your socks off in full-time jobs to volunteer, and that my circumstances were very different. So, after dropping out of University I undoubtedly had a lot of time on my hands, and for someone who was mentally a bit unstable this was very challenging. Every day seemed to go by soooooo slowly, it was like waiting for paint to dry, even with my hobbies such as reading I still seemed to have too much time on my hands! Understandably, this is one of the big reasons so many people my age become over-educated and stick at University, because they’re so unsure and horseskind of scared of what they’d do if they weren’t in education and actually had to think for themselves (wow, that was a mini rant). But it’s TRUE! So with this endless time I had, I decided I wanted to work with animals in some form, and volunteer doing this.

It took some time, but eventually I found something, and it was local which was even better since I don’t drive! All I had to do was look after some horses at an academy, it was outdoor work of course so sometimes it wasn’t pretty. I was carrying large nets of hay which could break my freaking back, attending to horses which threatened to bite my fingers off from time to time, and poo picked on top of a field on my own for 2 hours… I’m really selling this to you right?!! Although the work was often hard, I still felt a sense of achievement after working, and the fact I got to work outside and enjoy the scenery was even better. As I’ve said before, being out in the fresh air really helps to get into the present moment, you can find gratitude for pretty much anything if you’re living in the present!

It was this sense of achievement that kept me driven, and after working for the academy for a few months I finally built up the courage to ride a horse which I hadn’t done for like 15 years and it was amazing! Volunteering opens the doors to new unexpected things in your life that you may have never gotten the opportunity for before. It opens your eyes and your soul, and makes you realise that giving is better than taking!

You’re opening yourself to receiving gratitude from those you’re working for, and soak that shit up because it’s gold-dust!!!

Gratitude is the secret to happiness, and volunteering can help with unlocking that.

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This was Merlin my favourite owl! Follow my Instagram for future pictures- Hannahzgracee

Since doing the horse academy volunteering, I have gotten a job, yet I still manage to make time to help out, even if it’s not as often as before. I’ve kinda become addicted to it, I currently volunteer at an aviary too, which has led me to learning how to fly hawks and owls, which I would never have had the opportunity to do before if I hadn’t offered my time and help to their cause.

Volunteering shows that you care for greater causes rather than just yourself.

Empathy and time-giving is something we all need to show and give a little more of, which is why employers love it! It shows you’re different and have gone out of your way to do something that benefits other people as well as yourself! AND IT’S FREAKING AWESOME. As I mentioned before I’ll be going to Africa in June to volunteer and help restore biodiversity on a large piece of land out there, monitoring the wildlife resources and tracking animals. I’ll make sure to document the whole experience for you guys and let you know what I think!

Even if you feel as though you don’t have enough time to give to others, just email around or ask your local community if they need a help in hand with anything. Volunteering doesn’t have to be as bizarre as I make it sound! Volunteering can be caring for the elderly, or packing peoples shopping for them at the supermarket. I’m just the sort of person who likes to get out there and do adventurous, exciting things, that involve wildlife. But that’s just me! You do you, do whatever you’ll get the most joy from, otherwise what’s the point? Your happiness should always come first, and I can guarantee you’ll feel even happier after giving your time for a better cause.

All my love,

HG

Be the artist of your life

Good morning beautiful world and what a day it is to go after your dreams and aspirations. Each day is a new opportunity to do what you love and go after what you most desire, so go fetch!!!

I’ve come on here today to talk to you about becoming an artist right? Mehh kind of I suppose… Recently I stumbled across a quote from the oracle herself Oprah Winfrey who’s book I have been reading each morning called What I know for sure. She is simply inspiring, and through her wisdom I want to inspire you guys too. arist of life 1.jpg

“We are all the artists of our own lives, use as many colours and brushstrokes as you like.”

The whole point being that if you’re having a bad day and some dark colours have painted your canvas you can paint over these with bright and vibrant colours all at the stroke of the brush. You can do this in the next hour or in the next day after something not so great may have happened to you, and that’s pretty awesome! I think it’s so easy for us all to forget that we are actually the ones in control of how we feel, we hold the reigns of our emotions and thoughts… and even if the horse is stubborn and doesn’t want to go the way you want it to, you can give it a slight kick and you’ll be on your way to sunshines and rainbows again (wow that was weird?!).

Sometimes our own stubbornness can get in the way of us painting with new colours. For instance, in the past I would have sudden waves of low mood that would leave me in a little black hole of despair- this was some Alice and Wonderland shit except there was no wonder about it. One of my good friends would always say to me- ‘You are in control of how you feel, you can snap yourself out of this!’ But the darkness was just swallowing me up and I was too stubborn and blinded to see sense in what he was saying. But now I realise how right they were.

After putting it into practice over time I realised I hold the reins, or the paintbrush of my emotions, and just as easily as dark colours can be laid down they can easily be painted over with lighter colours. If you’ve ever painted your bedroom or anywhere, we all know arsit of life 2.jpgit will take a few coats of light colours in order to stop the darker colour showing through and this is the same with our emotions and feelings. Sometimes you may need to go over the same spot of dark paint before all you see is light and that is fine and it’s normal!! This is not an instant thing, hell it took me months of counselling and my boyfriend constantly repeating himself to me before I realised. Butttttt, it won’t have to take you so long because you’re reading this now and this is your sign, this is the moment you can change your perspective and become the artist of your life!!! YES QUEEN.

Paint whatever you like, create new colours for yourself, and paint the life you have dreamed of and know you will love. Knowing that you’re the artist means you’re consciousness to the fact you get to choose your emotions, choosing love, joy and happiness! Choose to be the best version of yourself. Because you’re awesome, we are all awesome, and we are all sick painters that’s for sure.

All my love, 

HG